wen i saw the vid of her last moments
froze. felt light-headed. and numb.
i wanted to cry, wail, moan, scream,
but nothing came out.
then i felt relieved
relieved that she's no more feeling the pain and sufferings
relieved that she's at peace.
and den i cried.
mixture of everything conjured up frm my heart and brain
the aching doesnt stop. i cldnt be there for her.