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Monday, April 30, 2007
i'm alone in my office! bored!! v v v v v bored! now i understand how ivonny feels having nutting to do the whole freaking day. asked joyce b4 she left if there's anithing i can do.. n she cant think of ani. so she juz told me to study the drawings of tis proj n understand it. so i did.. for onli 10 mins! its such a small scale proj...
there's 5 ppl wrking in my company. yep. freaking small.. the architect is my boss. he's in hong kong.. onli back by tmr aftnoon.
chiew peng (senior technologist) - on leave
joyce (architectural / interior technologist) - half day leave. left at 12.30am today.
christ (part time architectural technologist) - wrks mon n tues. didnt appear for wrk. apparently she comes onli wen chiew peng does.
lee hua (my dear fren... also part timer) - well.. she onli wrks on wed to fri.
me (architectural technologist) - in the office doing nutting but surf the net, chat online, blog n ans fone calls.
hmmm.. mayb i shld go onto imvu n start chatting wif random ppl. wonder if my company's comp will support the program. but come to tink of it.. i neeta dl it. hmm.. i shldnt be dling stuffs.. aaaarrrhhh...
went to check on UTI. n AH HA! i can prove lionel wrong. guys can get UTIs too! i've stopped taking the antibiotics for 4 days already. i shld really cont. n finish it up. dun wan it to come back again.. tho it's not painful animore.
1/1/2 more hrs!!!!
there's 5 ppl wrking in my company. yep. freaking small.. the architect is my boss. he's in hong kong.. onli back by tmr aftnoon.
chiew peng (senior technologist) - on leave
joyce (architectural / interior technologist) - half day leave. left at 12.30am today.
christ (part time architectural technologist) - wrks mon n tues. didnt appear for wrk. apparently she comes onli wen chiew peng does.
lee hua (my dear fren... also part timer) - well.. she onli wrks on wed to fri.
me (architectural technologist) - in the office doing nutting but surf the net, chat online, blog n ans fone calls.
hmmm.. mayb i shld go onto imvu n start chatting wif random ppl. wonder if my company's comp will support the program. but come to tink of it.. i neeta dl it. hmm.. i shldnt be dling stuffs.. aaaarrrhhh...
went to check on UTI. n AH HA! i can prove lionel wrong. guys can get UTIs too! i've stopped taking the antibiotics for 4 days already. i shld really cont. n finish it up. dun wan it to come back again.. tho it's not painful animore.
1/1/2 more hrs!!!!
Sunday, April 29, 2007
wanna add a song to my new skin.. but its kinda irritating wenever it loads pretty slowly n pauses once in a while. guess i'll juz hafta host the song myself.. but aaarh.. lazy. lazy sunday for mee.. =)
so into those hip hoppish love songs... makes me.. so happily in luuurrve. ahaha. not tt i am in love.. loving my life i guess. ehehe.
oh! suddenly thot of sumthing. a happy thot! =)
wen out wif the LTC peeps last sat.. den wei chee n i were walking ahead of the rest...
him: waaah slim down aaahh.. wad happened to u?
me: hmmm.. tink i eat lesser?
him: y?? depression ah?
me: *kiddingly wif a sad look* ya loorr... bf break wif me maahh..
him: ohh yaa!! eh tell me tell me! wad happened!!
so kay po rite? hahaha. was kinda amused by it. purposely played along wif him.. like stopped talking to him n went back to the gang to chat wif someone else. den he kept asking.. ahahahah. damn cute. so aft much pursuation, i told him wad happened. den he pat my back... n said, "ai ya.. nvm la. now without him, u look so much prettier n slimmer. i like ur new haircut." somewhere arnd tt meaning. damn amusing laaaa..
its tis kinda ppl u need in ur life maann!! i mean.. he's not someone i'm very close wif.. but close enuff to chat abt anithing wen we meet up.. n juz meeting once every few mnths, made my day so much brighter. n those statements made... stays in my mind man.. hahaha. coz its so flattering~! teee heee.. =)
went shopping wif my mom juz now at central n realised how much a shopaholic she is!! haha. we were actually in no mood to shop. i had already collected my top frm blum n bought a new pair of heels. she had no aim to get anithing. but she was like.. ai ya dun care. lets juz walk arnd. if the shop looks nice.. we go in n see. if we see sumthing we like.. we go try. if it fits.. den we buy. if not den nvm. haha. we actually aimed to shop till 4? but ended an hr later! haha. she got a top.
currently trying to start e webcam wif tw to show cha cha... but simply cant! so irritating man. den wen i put chacha back.. the webcam worked.. den he insisted in seeing chacha. now wen i finally cld force him out of his cage.. the webcam's not working again! SO IRRITATING!
so into those hip hoppish love songs... makes me.. so happily in luuurrve. ahaha. not tt i am in love.. loving my life i guess. ehehe.
oh! suddenly thot of sumthing. a happy thot! =)
wen out wif the LTC peeps last sat.. den wei chee n i were walking ahead of the rest...
him: waaah slim down aaahh.. wad happened to u?
me: hmmm.. tink i eat lesser?
him: y?? depression ah?
me: *kiddingly wif a sad look* ya loorr... bf break wif me maahh..
him: ohh yaa!! eh tell me tell me! wad happened!!
so kay po rite? hahaha. was kinda amused by it. purposely played along wif him.. like stopped talking to him n went back to the gang to chat wif someone else. den he kept asking.. ahahahah. damn cute. so aft much pursuation, i told him wad happened. den he pat my back... n said, "ai ya.. nvm la. now without him, u look so much prettier n slimmer. i like ur new haircut." somewhere arnd tt meaning. damn amusing laaaa..
its tis kinda ppl u need in ur life maann!! i mean.. he's not someone i'm very close wif.. but close enuff to chat abt anithing wen we meet up.. n juz meeting once every few mnths, made my day so much brighter. n those statements made... stays in my mind man.. hahaha. coz its so flattering~! teee heee.. =)
went shopping wif my mom juz now at central n realised how much a shopaholic she is!! haha. we were actually in no mood to shop. i had already collected my top frm blum n bought a new pair of heels. she had no aim to get anithing. but she was like.. ai ya dun care. lets juz walk arnd. if the shop looks nice.. we go in n see. if we see sumthing we like.. we go try. if it fits.. den we buy. if not den nvm. haha. we actually aimed to shop till 4? but ended an hr later! haha. she got a top.
currently trying to start e webcam wif tw to show cha cha... but simply cant! so irritating man. den wen i put chacha back.. the webcam worked.. den he insisted in seeing chacha. now wen i finally cld force him out of his cage.. the webcam's not working again! SO IRRITATING!
pictorial!!
uncle LEE!! a cockel spaniel at the pet shop below my office
snow-white~!!! mix breed. =)
taking pics wif cha cha~!
a top frm blum tt costs $60. $5 for tailoring. but it was still too loose wen i collected it today. gonna get my mom to help me tighten it. 
the tube/halter tt costs onli $9!!!
the new pair of heels i bought today at central!! i loik~! 37 bucks. =)
Saturday, April 28, 2007
i'm at home! on a sat! aint it so rare?! feels pretty gd...
bought a top for juz 9 bucks yest. its a pink halter/tube. the material's quite gd. v v v v v cheap for a material like tt. =)
until-i-get-my-pay resolution : simple.. no going out. unless i have someone who will chauffer me arnd n pay my meals.
once-i-got-my-pay resolution:
1)simple... save 300 bucks n spend the rest!
2) get tt irresistable pair of jeans frm future state.
3) pay trueyoga's lesson fees.
4) get a new bag
tts abt wad i wanna do wif my pay. tts 500 bucks gone. aft which, fate shall decided wad happens to it.
most importantly, SAVE! yes. SAVE SAVE SAVE! onli got to save 100 bucks frm last mnth's pay. tsk tsk.
plans for today
- pract. my piano exam pieces
- clean cha cha's cage
- bake brownies / make choco cornflakes
planned to go workout at the gym. but mom wants me to go out for dinner at clarke quay. sad... workout replaced wif eating. more fats~! =(
bought a top for juz 9 bucks yest. its a pink halter/tube. the material's quite gd. v v v v v cheap for a material like tt. =)
until-i-get-my-pay resolution : simple.. no going out. unless i have someone who will chauffer me arnd n pay my meals.
once-i-got-my-pay resolution:
1)simple... save 300 bucks n spend the rest!
2) get tt irresistable pair of jeans frm future state.
3) pay trueyoga's lesson fees.
4) get a new bag
tts abt wad i wanna do wif my pay. tts 500 bucks gone. aft which, fate shall decided wad happens to it.
most importantly, SAVE! yes. SAVE SAVE SAVE! onli got to save 100 bucks frm last mnth's pay. tsk tsk.
plans for today
- pract. my piano exam pieces
- clean cha cha's cage
- bake brownies / make choco cornflakes
planned to go workout at the gym. but mom wants me to go out for dinner at clarke quay. sad... workout replaced wif eating. more fats~! =(
Thursday, April 26, 2007
YO WASSUP~!! feeling sooo funkaye now. listening to a whole list of RnB songs thnx to tw... cant stop bobbing my bod man. wooo hoo~!
finally met tw for dinner. he's been asking n i'm always not free. the thing y i lurv meeting tw is tt not only does he crap arnd ALOT, he has tis mp3 fuuuull of RnB hits.. n he ALWAYS blast it in his car. so we'll be singing n bobbing arnd. ahaha. had been asking for his songs for a v v v v v v long time. so we planned our night so tt i can get the songs.
first stop~! the supermarket. ahaha. yep, we did a lil shopping. to waste time. so i bought the baking stuffs. promised him tt i'll make him the cornflakes choco thingy, since he have nv try it b4. wanted to get some cookie mix to bake for chris, but cldnt find it.. so i bought brownie mix instead. yep~! told chris i'm gonna bake for him too. hehehe. i love baking~! oh there's the jap curry rice n cold noodles, which i bought back frm jap. wanna cook for him too. hmmmmm.. i'm turning so auntie. ahahha.
headed back to my place to put down the items n to grab my harddrive, den to his place. slacked arnd while he transferred the whole freaking list of 100 over songs. yiipppeee~! den hooome. =)
watched phantom of the opera yest!!!!! the setting's freaking gd. they actually had a freaking huge chandelier hanging above. there's scenes wen the phantom does disappearing acts. my fave is actually how the stage was flooded wif a sea of mist. damn nice~! 1 down point is tt the sound effect was not really gd? n the singing wasnt really clear. but u noe.. opera.. u wont be able to understand more than half of wad they're singing.
aniway, some pics~! dun get sick of looking at me... pretty sure u will.. =P
finally met tw for dinner. he's been asking n i'm always not free. the thing y i lurv meeting tw is tt not only does he crap arnd ALOT, he has tis mp3 fuuuull of RnB hits.. n he ALWAYS blast it in his car. so we'll be singing n bobbing arnd. ahaha. had been asking for his songs for a v v v v v v long time. so we planned our night so tt i can get the songs.
first stop~! the supermarket. ahaha. yep, we did a lil shopping. to waste time. so i bought the baking stuffs. promised him tt i'll make him the cornflakes choco thingy, since he have nv try it b4. wanted to get some cookie mix to bake for chris, but cldnt find it.. so i bought brownie mix instead. yep~! told chris i'm gonna bake for him too. hehehe. i love baking~! oh there's the jap curry rice n cold noodles, which i bought back frm jap. wanna cook for him too. hmmmmm.. i'm turning so auntie. ahahha.
headed back to my place to put down the items n to grab my harddrive, den to his place. slacked arnd while he transferred the whole freaking list of 100 over songs. yiipppeee~! den hooome. =)
watched phantom of the opera yest!!!!! the setting's freaking gd. they actually had a freaking huge chandelier hanging above. there's scenes wen the phantom does disappearing acts. my fave is actually how the stage was flooded wif a sea of mist. damn nice~! 1 down point is tt the sound effect was not really gd? n the singing wasnt really clear. but u noe.. opera.. u wont be able to understand more than half of wad they're singing.
aniway, some pics~! dun get sick of looking at me... pretty sure u will.. =P
in tw's car wif his oakley sunglasses. damn cool rite?! i loik~!!
nxt!!! there's tis pet shop juz below my office wif dogs running arnd~!! took pics of onli 2 dogs. both retrievers!! one's still a pup, the other's 3 yrs old.
nxt!!! there's tis pet shop juz below my office wif dogs running arnd~!! took pics of onli 2 dogs. both retrievers!! one's still a pup, the other's 3 yrs old.
introducing the 3 yrs old.. jimbo!!! he looks sad ah. hehe.
i look damn shagged. haha. 
n tis cute lil pup beethoven! onli seen him 1 day tho. sad. he was adorable.
n tis cute lil pup beethoven! onli seen him 1 day tho. sad. he was adorable.gonna change my blog skin~!
Monday, April 23, 2007
had been pretty "thotless"... n it bothers me. so not me... well.. actually.. been thinking abt some stuff recently.. but i'm not gonna it state here.. prob in my other blog, where in depth, more personal thots r..
den u'll prob think wads the use of tis blog den..
i like the idea of sharing. its like chatting wif an imaginary fren... even if no one is reading.. coz honestly, i love to share wad i do or think every single day to someone. but i'm worried tt it will juz bore the person... having to onli talk abt myself, n wad i've been doing.. n no one is ALWAYS there for u? it may be diff for some.. but its like tis for me. i have some pretty gd frens. they noe my probs.. they noe wads going on in my life.. but they have their own life, own probs to handle, own frens to hang out wif.. so i dun expect them to be here for me 24/7. sounds sad? its not!
kinda lazy to type out y i'm not sad abt it... prob turn out to be another essay. haha.
so yep. tis is y i'm still blogging religiously here! but of coz.. some thots r to be kept unheard. so out comes the other blog. =P
wad is a date? wad defines a date? was chatting wif ivonny abt going out on several occasions wif someone. n she asked wen was our first date... was tt our first date.. etc. den i asked.. wad is a first date? which got me thinking... seriously. wad is a first date? thot back of my other ex relationships... n cant seem to get the right ans. is it a date onli wen he mentioned "its a date"? is it a date wen... u noe he likes u, n u like him.. but he nv really confess to u... den he asked u out..? is it a date wen.. u first held hands wif him? is it a date wen... he first kissed u? is it a date wen.. u went out to a romantic setting? hmm.. come to tink of it.. i've nv really experience a romantic night out... not tt i need it.. for me.. plain n simple, getting to noe each other more.. is nice. =)
which den got me to thinking abt wed! phantom of the opera wif chris. first time watching a musical at the esplanade wif onli a guy man. it was either my grp of my frens or my aunt. not tt we're going out on a "date" or anithing.. but u noe... i'm always worried abt wad to wear. esp wen its on a rare occasion. i'm afraid tt i'll either turn out too plain/normal... or too glam.. not tt kinda "wow" glam.. but "urh..... y u wear until lidat?" kinda glam. or... "argh. u look fat in tt outfit". or.. "argh... so aunty." or.. "eeww.. thunder arms". AHH~!! =(
seriously lack of confidence.
den u'll prob think wads the use of tis blog den..
i like the idea of sharing. its like chatting wif an imaginary fren... even if no one is reading.. coz honestly, i love to share wad i do or think every single day to someone. but i'm worried tt it will juz bore the person... having to onli talk abt myself, n wad i've been doing.. n no one is ALWAYS there for u? it may be diff for some.. but its like tis for me. i have some pretty gd frens. they noe my probs.. they noe wads going on in my life.. but they have their own life, own probs to handle, own frens to hang out wif.. so i dun expect them to be here for me 24/7. sounds sad? its not!
kinda lazy to type out y i'm not sad abt it... prob turn out to be another essay. haha.
so yep. tis is y i'm still blogging religiously here! but of coz.. some thots r to be kept unheard. so out comes the other blog. =P
wad is a date? wad defines a date? was chatting wif ivonny abt going out on several occasions wif someone. n she asked wen was our first date... was tt our first date.. etc. den i asked.. wad is a first date? which got me thinking... seriously. wad is a first date? thot back of my other ex relationships... n cant seem to get the right ans. is it a date onli wen he mentioned "its a date"? is it a date wen... u noe he likes u, n u like him.. but he nv really confess to u... den he asked u out..? is it a date wen.. u first held hands wif him? is it a date wen... he first kissed u? is it a date wen.. u went out to a romantic setting? hmm.. come to tink of it.. i've nv really experience a romantic night out... not tt i need it.. for me.. plain n simple, getting to noe each other more.. is nice. =)
which den got me to thinking abt wed! phantom of the opera wif chris. first time watching a musical at the esplanade wif onli a guy man. it was either my grp of my frens or my aunt. not tt we're going out on a "date" or anithing.. but u noe... i'm always worried abt wad to wear. esp wen its on a rare occasion. i'm afraid tt i'll either turn out too plain/normal... or too glam.. not tt kinda "wow" glam.. but "urh..... y u wear until lidat?" kinda glam. or... "argh. u look fat in tt outfit". or.. "argh... so aunty." or.. "eeww.. thunder arms". AHH~!! =(
seriously lack of confidence.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
juz finished reading zak n vir's blog. cldnt stop laughing man.. damn farnie the pics. hahahahaha~
cute cute cute?! CUTE RIGHT?!!! arrrgh.
lh's starting wrk tmr! yes! i have someone wrking wif me!
went to dxo for zak's belated bday celebration. laughed so much man.. esp the part wen sab n i were mimicking ping n pong frm 987fm. ahahaha~! they were saying we were high even b4 reaching the club. ahaa. the beginning was boring coz it was a live band followed by house music. blllaahh.. BORING. so we juz slacked arnd.. sab n i were trying to mimick ppl dancing to house music. the typical dance moves la... shake body, shake head... bob up n down. BORING. haha. den rnb came. yippee~! was arnd 1am by den.
tink we're getting old or sumthing? it was barely 3am wen we stopped. i was exhausted man. used to last till 6am! aniway, the others headed home while me ivonny sab n leslie went to boat quay for supper. tt was wen i went totally dead... had a pounding headache n cld barely open my eyes. tried to conc. on their conv. but cld barely hear wad they were toking abt. seriously thot i was abt to konk out.... so.... the 3 of us went home.. leslie cont. walking arnd. had nooo idea y he didnt wanna go home. reached home at 4.30.. fainted at 5am..
woke up at 5pm the nxt day! ahaha.. den went to meet the LTC peeps. so HAPPY to see them again~! yiipppeeeeeee... they're planning to go tioman in june for snorkelling or something. YAYNESS~! cant wait. the beach~! i miss da beach.
aniway, gotta share tis... pics of RAVE~! chris's dog... she's damn cute. like soft toy. a lil too active tho.. gets quite irritating aft sometime. took quite alot of pics of her.. tis r juz cuter ones.. =)
cute cute cute?! CUTE RIGHT?!!! arrrgh.
lh's starting wrk tmr! yes! i have someone wrking wif me!
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
as usual back to the office an hr earlier doing wadeva i wanna do. wahahahah~! the weather's seriously turning haywire. it was raining sooo freaking heavily wen i was having lunch tt i had to ask my colleague to bring down an umbrella for me. n now i'm back to e office not more than 5 mins n it stopped raining. wads going on man?! is it going to be the end?! ohhh boi.. treasure every moment u have wif ur peeps... tell them u love them b4 its too late.. I LOVE YOU PPL!! I LOVE YOU PAPA N MAMA!! I LOVE YOU KOR!! I LOVE YOU CHA CHA!!ahahahahahahahaha~! lame.
kinda hesitated writing tis entry? coz the entry which i wrote to my ex is the last entry of the page already. having to add tis new entry means pushing tt entry out of my blog page. really want him to read it? n i'm nt sure if he did? but 2nd thot... y am i even so bothered abt him?
chris was telling me yest thru msn abt tt issue wif my ex. n it seriously got me wondering y the hell i'm still making excuses for him? n blaming it on myself? i was the one who got hurt man.. he was the one who got his freedom. but i'm pretty sure i'll be back to missing him n all.. sooooo i saved chris's conversation. it helped! so much! =P
out wif da archi gang yest! excuse meee... since wen we have became the horny gang?! since wen i became the hairless horny? i got hair ok.... u'll be surprised where i hid it. urh.. ok tt sounded pretty wrong too. O_O
alright.. back to work. shall end tis entry wif a portion of wad chris told me yest on msn.
Sleepless- says: i regret now all the things i did
Sleepless- says: trying to do stuff so she will change her mind..trying to make her like me more
Sleepless- says: trying to chnage myself
Sleepless- says: in the end..3 years later i think abt it ..i wonder why i wasted all that time and effort..
-= sOxY =-[the pieces dont fit anymore] says: tis kinda thing need time..
Sleepless- says: yes
Sleepless- says: true
Sleepless- says: but u gotta start seeing him for who he is
Sleepless- says: not who he was
Sleepless- says: or who u think he can be
Sleepless- says: if a guy really love u...there is not a chance that he will go one week without calling u... last time i wanted to tell u this liao but then it was none of my business and stuff..but now i think since i know u better i guess i can say such thigs
kinda hesitated writing tis entry? coz the entry which i wrote to my ex is the last entry of the page already. having to add tis new entry means pushing tt entry out of my blog page. really want him to read it? n i'm nt sure if he did? but 2nd thot... y am i even so bothered abt him?
chris was telling me yest thru msn abt tt issue wif my ex. n it seriously got me wondering y the hell i'm still making excuses for him? n blaming it on myself? i was the one who got hurt man.. he was the one who got his freedom. but i'm pretty sure i'll be back to missing him n all.. sooooo i saved chris's conversation. it helped! so much! =P
out wif da archi gang yest! excuse meee... since wen we have became the horny gang?! since wen i became the hairless horny? i got hair ok.... u'll be surprised where i hid it. urh.. ok tt sounded pretty wrong too. O_O
alright.. back to work. shall end tis entry wif a portion of wad chris told me yest on msn.
Sleepless- says: i regret now all the things i did
Sleepless- says: trying to do stuff so she will change her mind..trying to make her like me more
Sleepless- says: trying to chnage myself
Sleepless- says: in the end..3 years later i think abt it ..i wonder why i wasted all that time and effort..
-= sOxY =-[the pieces dont fit anymore] says: tis kinda thing need time..
Sleepless- says: yes
Sleepless- says: true
Sleepless- says: but u gotta start seeing him for who he is
Sleepless- says: not who he was
Sleepless- says: or who u think he can be
Sleepless- says: if a guy really love u...there is not a chance that he will go one week without calling u... last time i wanted to tell u this liao but then it was none of my business and stuff..but now i think since i know u better i guess i can say such thigs
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
blogging in office! hahaha~
had been going out for lunch an hr earlier than the rest to meet bun. she's working at UE sq. such a coincidence rite?! always a joy to see her.. had been laughing like mad.. coz weird things always seem to happen to her. nv a day wen nutting happens.
so yep, now i'm back in office. all alone! coz the rest had went out for lunch.
was chatting wif bun abt our love life. we're both crazily out of love. i'm more of less settled wif being single, she's still in a mess. the no. of things we have in common are countless man!
ever encountered tis prob wen no matter how many times tis particular guy hurts u, or make life difficult, u juz cant seem to bring urself to hate him? n u still find urself not getting over him? it sux man...
had been telling bun to get over him. n tt its not worth it all. n if she dun do it now, she'll prob wont get over him for the rest of her life. seriously tink tt there'll be someone better for her? but while saying all tis, i noe tt i'm facing tis prob myself. def dealing it better than her... but it juz pops out once in a while. like today during work. *shrugs* aint gonna let it affect me.
love juz makes u do the silliest, "stupidest", craziest things. n u dont regret it. well.. most of the time. tts y.. we shld try to enjoy the best of both worlds! being single but "attached". ahahaha. *wink wink*
had been going out for lunch an hr earlier than the rest to meet bun. she's working at UE sq. such a coincidence rite?! always a joy to see her.. had been laughing like mad.. coz weird things always seem to happen to her. nv a day wen nutting happens.
so yep, now i'm back in office. all alone! coz the rest had went out for lunch.
was chatting wif bun abt our love life. we're both crazily out of love. i'm more of less settled wif being single, she's still in a mess. the no. of things we have in common are countless man!
ever encountered tis prob wen no matter how many times tis particular guy hurts u, or make life difficult, u juz cant seem to bring urself to hate him? n u still find urself not getting over him? it sux man...
had been telling bun to get over him. n tt its not worth it all. n if she dun do it now, she'll prob wont get over him for the rest of her life. seriously tink tt there'll be someone better for her? but while saying all tis, i noe tt i'm facing tis prob myself. def dealing it better than her... but it juz pops out once in a while. like today during work. *shrugs* aint gonna let it affect me.
love juz makes u do the silliest, "stupidest", craziest things. n u dont regret it. well.. most of the time. tts y.. we shld try to enjoy the best of both worlds! being single but "attached". ahahaha. *wink wink*
Monday, April 16, 2007
wanted to change my blog skin but cldnt find sumthing tt i really liked. n the fonts r so small! i'll juz stick to tis. but the window's too short man... n i always crap a hell lot. owells.
went to wrk at james tan again. felt less lost tis time.. doc tan was teaching me while i assist him. i sure did learn sum stuff n felt more comfortable. mayb guess there were less ppl wrking today.. so i felt less stressed up. the first time was TERRIBLE! everyone were busy running arnd except me! i juz floated arnd the place like a lost soul... wanted to help but didnt noe wad to help wif. darn... i muz really quit my archi job n start wrking full time. i crave for experience!!
had been eating my medication regularly.. but the pain juz comes back if i delayed... getting damn worried. is it really kidney stones? hope not.
yoga today wif ivonny was GOOD! its slightly more difficult.. n i was actually perspiring! felt damn gd. esp wen i felt my muscles being stretched. been long since i stretched them. the abs wrk was as usual torturing. not tt i mind. =)
wrk tmr! haiz... how am i going to tell my boss tt i'm quitting?!
went to wrk at james tan again. felt less lost tis time.. doc tan was teaching me while i assist him. i sure did learn sum stuff n felt more comfortable. mayb guess there were less ppl wrking today.. so i felt less stressed up. the first time was TERRIBLE! everyone were busy running arnd except me! i juz floated arnd the place like a lost soul... wanted to help but didnt noe wad to help wif. darn... i muz really quit my archi job n start wrking full time. i crave for experience!!
had been eating my medication regularly.. but the pain juz comes back if i delayed... getting damn worried. is it really kidney stones? hope not.
yoga today wif ivonny was GOOD! its slightly more difficult.. n i was actually perspiring! felt damn gd. esp wen i felt my muscles being stretched. been long since i stretched them. the abs wrk was as usual torturing. not tt i mind. =)
wrk tmr! haiz... how am i going to tell my boss tt i'm quitting?!
Sunday, April 15, 2007
HOMMMEEE! today's mood is exactly the opp of yest's mood. today ish HAPPY!! i also dunno y i so happy.. but its juz HAPPY! wahahha.. its already 1.30am.. n i hafta wake up at 7 for vet nurse work tmr... n i'm still HAPPY!! aft tis post. i shall slp. NOT! ahahaha.
aniway, went to meet vir n ivonny for a hair cut today. vir cut her fringe, ivonny treated n trimmed her hair n i trimmed a lil of my already short hair. realised i haven been putting pics, so here goes!! some zi lian pics. wahaha.
aniway, went to meet vir n ivonny for a hair cut today. vir cut her fringe, ivonny treated n trimmed her hair n i trimmed a lil of my already short hair. realised i haven been putting pics, so here goes!! some zi lian pics. wahaha.
taken at outram mrt station, on the way to vivo to meet chris
n tis r the home collections. ahaha. taken today.
very zi lian rite?! wahaha.
watched the reaping wif chris. as usual.. kept freaking out. i juz dun understand y guys can be sooo calmed! chris didnt even flinch!
argh slpy~~ finally. =)
Saturday, April 14, 2007
emo~emo~ n i HATE tis feeling. =(
miss dancing so much. miss putting every inch of my muscles to use. miss letting go of my emotions thru movements. wanna dance so much.. ani kinda dance.. juz to let go of wads been couped up in my heart all along.
sumtimes i forced those emotions to the back of my head n squeezed tt crazy n bubbly side of me so much in front of my frens.. tt wen i'm alone... everything juz bursts out. desperately wanting to get free. shattering every inch of my bones. n there's nutting for me to bring myself together. no arms to run into. no warmth i can melt into.
y is tis break up so difficult for me to cope? having to noe tt he had hurt me again n again. wad happened to tt oh-so-carefree me wen i was single for 2 yrs? those 2 yrs were the best ever.. y is it so difficult to get tt back again?
had been tinking abt the last time we met up b4 the break up. he said he loved me.. n it sounded so true. he held me so tightly, like he didnt wanna let me go. those were total bliss.. having to finally see him aft 3 wks. but were those words n actions juz for show? i was there wif him, n she was there in his mind.
the tears had already dried up aft a mnth of crying. i cried in sch, in hard rock cafe, at home, on the streets, on buses, on cabs... i cried so much tt there was even a moment wen i wondered wad i was crying abt. but wen it all finally ended, i onli cried twice! once was at japan, the other was juz recently. i was so immune to it.
y am i blogging abt tis? damn.. pms.. freaking mood swings. now i can actually feel anger rising. -_-
aniway, yest was an emo day for me too. so i went jogging at the gym downstairs. kinda forgot abt my UTI illness. so i ran at 10km/h on the thread. 1km more than usual. wanted so desperately to forget all my probs. i thot i did. but arnd the 2km mark, my right side started to hurt super badly. it was along the urinary tract. it was so bad tt i cldnt breath properly. haiz.
dunno wad to write animore. shall juz slp.
miss dancing so much. miss putting every inch of my muscles to use. miss letting go of my emotions thru movements. wanna dance so much.. ani kinda dance.. juz to let go of wads been couped up in my heart all along.
sumtimes i forced those emotions to the back of my head n squeezed tt crazy n bubbly side of me so much in front of my frens.. tt wen i'm alone... everything juz bursts out. desperately wanting to get free. shattering every inch of my bones. n there's nutting for me to bring myself together. no arms to run into. no warmth i can melt into.
y is tis break up so difficult for me to cope? having to noe tt he had hurt me again n again. wad happened to tt oh-so-carefree me wen i was single for 2 yrs? those 2 yrs were the best ever.. y is it so difficult to get tt back again?
had been tinking abt the last time we met up b4 the break up. he said he loved me.. n it sounded so true. he held me so tightly, like he didnt wanna let me go. those were total bliss.. having to finally see him aft 3 wks. but were those words n actions juz for show? i was there wif him, n she was there in his mind.
the tears had already dried up aft a mnth of crying. i cried in sch, in hard rock cafe, at home, on the streets, on buses, on cabs... i cried so much tt there was even a moment wen i wondered wad i was crying abt. but wen it all finally ended, i onli cried twice! once was at japan, the other was juz recently. i was so immune to it.
y am i blogging abt tis? damn.. pms.. freaking mood swings. now i can actually feel anger rising. -_-
aniway, yest was an emo day for me too. so i went jogging at the gym downstairs. kinda forgot abt my UTI illness. so i ran at 10km/h on the thread. 1km more than usual. wanted so desperately to forget all my probs. i thot i did. but arnd the 2km mark, my right side started to hurt super badly. it was along the urinary tract. it was so bad tt i cldnt breath properly. haiz.
dunno wad to write animore. shall juz slp.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
while waiting for tw to pick me up for supper, i shall blog. hehe. not gonna eat tho.. juz acc him since he didnt get a single bite today. haiz.. tt guy ah.. always dun eat.
aniway, been in a light mood today. xcept for wrk, which i am slowly losing interest in. but had been tinking alot of my new illness. its kinda scary.
it all started wif a pretty bad backache at the side... cldnt really walk properly, had to constantly bend forward to relieve the pain. it was turned into a joke of being pregnant wif jack's kid. we're gonna give birth to human chinchillas! chin body, human head. yikes. mutant.
aniway, cld still joke abt it, coz i didnt take it seriously. thot i've juz hurt my back or sumthing. den it got worse at nite. i cld barely walk or sit strght. so i thot mayb i shld ice it. so i did. but wen i was abt to fall aslp, hoping for it to get better the nxt day, the pain spread to the whole of my mid section. frm my back to the stomach. the pain was soo excruciating i cldnt slp till 4am. lying down hurts, sitting hurts, walking hurts even more! n i felt soo nauseous. i thot my bod was abt to break into half. finally fell aslp, onli to wake up 4 hrs later. immediately told my parents n my colleagues tt i cant go to wrk, n tt i have to go to the doc. was seriously freaking out.
the doc suspected tt i have either urinary tract infection (UTI) or kidney stones. the reason was lack of water. so she gave me med for UTI, hoping tt it will get better. if it doesnt, den kidney stones cld be the reason, n tt i hafta go for blood test or xray (or ultrascan - as wad lionel said). really hope its onli UTI. guess tts y i've been losing so much weight despite eating more than usual huh... aargh! *prays*
chris played a trick on me n i cld juz KILL YOU! felt sooo fooled tt i started cursing n swearing in my office! n a client was there. omg. luckily boss wasnt arnd. argh so embarrassed.
aniway, tis embarrassment made me tink of the nite i was out wif him n his frens at mos. they played the dance-in-the-centre thingy. as usual... will pull someone out to the middle of the circle to dance. so it was my turn to dance, which i did... n made a fool out of myself! was twirling arnd n lost my freaking balance n toppled onto chris. argh. u so do NOT lose ur balance wen dancing! but luckily it was chris i toppled onto but not someone else. ahahaha. aniway, was tinking abt it the whole trip home, cldnt stop wondering Y THE HELL i embarrassed myself infront of soo many ppl. ARGH! tts y i HATE dancing in the centre. stupid me, showing off wen there's nutting of me to show off! kept tinking to myself tt i'm some fat gal who cant even hold her centre, trying to act sexy, onli to look even more ugly n foolish. =(
tw's taking an awfully long time to get here. time for medication!
aniway, been in a light mood today. xcept for wrk, which i am slowly losing interest in. but had been tinking alot of my new illness. its kinda scary.
it all started wif a pretty bad backache at the side... cldnt really walk properly, had to constantly bend forward to relieve the pain. it was turned into a joke of being pregnant wif jack's kid. we're gonna give birth to human chinchillas! chin body, human head. yikes. mutant.
aniway, cld still joke abt it, coz i didnt take it seriously. thot i've juz hurt my back or sumthing. den it got worse at nite. i cld barely walk or sit strght. so i thot mayb i shld ice it. so i did. but wen i was abt to fall aslp, hoping for it to get better the nxt day, the pain spread to the whole of my mid section. frm my back to the stomach. the pain was soo excruciating i cldnt slp till 4am. lying down hurts, sitting hurts, walking hurts even more! n i felt soo nauseous. i thot my bod was abt to break into half. finally fell aslp, onli to wake up 4 hrs later. immediately told my parents n my colleagues tt i cant go to wrk, n tt i have to go to the doc. was seriously freaking out.
the doc suspected tt i have either urinary tract infection (UTI) or kidney stones. the reason was lack of water. so she gave me med for UTI, hoping tt it will get better. if it doesnt, den kidney stones cld be the reason, n tt i hafta go for blood test or xray (or ultrascan - as wad lionel said). really hope its onli UTI. guess tts y i've been losing so much weight despite eating more than usual huh... aargh! *prays*
chris played a trick on me n i cld juz KILL YOU! felt sooo fooled tt i started cursing n swearing in my office! n a client was there. omg. luckily boss wasnt arnd. argh so embarrassed.
aniway, tis embarrassment made me tink of the nite i was out wif him n his frens at mos. they played the dance-in-the-centre thingy. as usual... will pull someone out to the middle of the circle to dance. so it was my turn to dance, which i did... n made a fool out of myself! was twirling arnd n lost my freaking balance n toppled onto chris. argh. u so do NOT lose ur balance wen dancing! but luckily it was chris i toppled onto but not someone else. ahahaha. aniway, was tinking abt it the whole trip home, cldnt stop wondering Y THE HELL i embarrassed myself infront of soo many ppl. ARGH! tts y i HATE dancing in the centre. stupid me, showing off wen there's nutting of me to show off! kept tinking to myself tt i'm some fat gal who cant even hold her centre, trying to act sexy, onli to look even more ugly n foolish. =(
tw's taking an awfully long time to get here. time for medication!
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
new song added to my blog. its super nice man.. n i like the lyrics.. its sad, but somehow it caught my attention.
James Morrison
The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore
I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart
Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit here anymore
You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone
Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore
Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Coz I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why
Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit here anymore
_______________________________________________
my back is hurting like crazy. like crazily crazy. i cld barely sit or walk properly. have no idea wads wrong. the pain juz spreads arnd my lower waist, including my lower stomach. AAH! helllp~
my boss was being an idiot today. first he asked me to head down to suntec exhibition to help out in the booth arnd 3pm today. so i did aft lunch. den guess wad?! he den told me,"urh.. actually come to tink of it, i dun need u animore. tink u can juz head back to office." i was like WTH?! arrrgh. so instead of heading strght back, i decided to be slightly rebelious. i went shopping. wahahaha.
ah my back... its killing me~! waiting for the ice-maker to freeze the water so tt i can ice my back. i'm going crazy!!
James Morrison
The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore
I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart
Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit here anymore
You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone
Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore
Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Coz I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why
Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit here anymore
_______________________________________________
my back is hurting like crazy. like crazily crazy. i cld barely sit or walk properly. have no idea wads wrong. the pain juz spreads arnd my lower waist, including my lower stomach. AAH! helllp~
my boss was being an idiot today. first he asked me to head down to suntec exhibition to help out in the booth arnd 3pm today. so i did aft lunch. den guess wad?! he den told me,"urh.. actually come to tink of it, i dun need u animore. tink u can juz head back to office." i was like WTH?! arrrgh. so instead of heading strght back, i decided to be slightly rebelious. i went shopping. wahahaha.
ah my back... its killing me~! waiting for the ice-maker to freeze the water so tt i can ice my back. i'm going crazy!!
Saturday, April 07, 2007
my life is in a mess.. its going haywire.. n i dunno wad to do abt it. its nutting abt the events, but of emotional n psychological factors. sumhow sumthing is driving me crazy. i've been going thru waves aft waves of depression, n had been controlling like crazy. wont wanna spoil everyone's mood rite? had been wanting to consult someone abt tis, but i juz cant seem to tink of anione. they all seem so carefree.
i can laugh n joke n smile. but at the back of my head, sumthing juz seem to be missing. n.. there's juz nutting much to tok abt animore. all i can ever chat abt is clubbing.. ang mohs.. man.. work. n it BORES ME! n i noe it bores the ppl arnd me too! was out wif the archi gang at bugis today, n realised wad lil topic i have to share wif them. mayb guess its my oh-so-painful-pounding headache. but while wif them, all i wanna do is have some time alone for myself. away frm the world n my frens. i wanted to cry right then... but how cld i? everyone seem so happy.
wen out wif christ at mos wif his frens on thurs, i recieved tis msg frm my ex..
"If there's realli no one else to talk to there's still me.. nw i can only read ur blog and worry but i'll still listen if u let me"
i'm not sure how to react to it. but since i noe tt u're still reading my blog, i'll juz be frank n spill it all out.
no i wont talk to u abt my probs. really sorry. coz having to talk to u onli adds to my sorrows, knowing tt u're there somewhere, n tt i cant reach out to u. i am trying my best to forget u as soon as possible. every single time i tink of u n wondering where u were, wad u were doing.. all i cld tink of is tt u're out wif ying xi, having fun. n tt thot hurts, it hurts so much. u promised way back wen we patched tt u will nv hurt me again, n u did, again. if things were left to the pt wen breaking up was for my benefits of studying in aust, things wldnt have gone so bad. we cld still remain as frens. prob it aint ur fault entirely, guess i'm to blame too. guess i'm not worth ur wait. guess i'm not worth having u whole heartedly. so wad makes u tink i can tell u my probs like nutting happened btwn us? u're also part of tis probs. so pls... if u really wanna help me... help me forget abt u... stop contacting me. i loved u too much. n u've hurt me too much.
guess i've found wads missing. its him... n i will hafta find a way to feel tt void.
i can laugh n joke n smile. but at the back of my head, sumthing juz seem to be missing. n.. there's juz nutting much to tok abt animore. all i can ever chat abt is clubbing.. ang mohs.. man.. work. n it BORES ME! n i noe it bores the ppl arnd me too! was out wif the archi gang at bugis today, n realised wad lil topic i have to share wif them. mayb guess its my oh-so-painful-pounding headache. but while wif them, all i wanna do is have some time alone for myself. away frm the world n my frens. i wanted to cry right then... but how cld i? everyone seem so happy.
wen out wif christ at mos wif his frens on thurs, i recieved tis msg frm my ex..
"If there's realli no one else to talk to there's still me.. nw i can only read ur blog and worry but i'll still listen if u let me"
i'm not sure how to react to it. but since i noe tt u're still reading my blog, i'll juz be frank n spill it all out.
no i wont talk to u abt my probs. really sorry. coz having to talk to u onli adds to my sorrows, knowing tt u're there somewhere, n tt i cant reach out to u. i am trying my best to forget u as soon as possible. every single time i tink of u n wondering where u were, wad u were doing.. all i cld tink of is tt u're out wif ying xi, having fun. n tt thot hurts, it hurts so much. u promised way back wen we patched tt u will nv hurt me again, n u did, again. if things were left to the pt wen breaking up was for my benefits of studying in aust, things wldnt have gone so bad. we cld still remain as frens. prob it aint ur fault entirely, guess i'm to blame too. guess i'm not worth ur wait. guess i'm not worth having u whole heartedly. so wad makes u tink i can tell u my probs like nutting happened btwn us? u're also part of tis probs. so pls... if u really wanna help me... help me forget abt u... stop contacting me. i loved u too much. n u've hurt me too much.
guess i've found wads missing. its him... n i will hafta find a way to feel tt void.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
gosh.. juz realised how long its been since i last blogged.
well.. there's nutting much to say aniway. everyday's juz the same ol routine of work.
well. xcept tt these days have been spiced up by someone, christopher... no.. not my new bf.. but well... not juz a normal fren too... have no idea wads it btwn us.. i do like him.. but i dun like him to the extend of love, not even crush. soo.. yea.. complicated issue. hmm.. fling? haha..
aniway, i did a really dumb thing today. brought back work. O_O
well.. i've been working wif i-jin n mr fong on an exhibition for my company. they were discussing how to go abt doing it, den realised tt there's very lil time left. den mr fong was telling me wad i can do.. n by wen i muz finish. n for some funny reason, i heard myself saying i can bring it home to complete. n JUZ wen i said it, realisation dawned on me of how foolish i was! work home?! damn.
lionel juz called saying he juz left his office... thot i cld meet him.. DAMN! i cld have stayed in e office to finish it up den meet him rite? foolish me. den i can apologize to him properly. which brings me to the nxt topic...
played a trick on lionel on the fone on april fool's day wif ivonny. pretended to cry damn badly. saying tt i went out wif tis guy.. he did sumthing to me.. n left me at an unknown place. cried n cried. lionel got super worried, kept asking where i was. n while i was acting, ivonny was on the other line listening... we were conferencing. aft tt i was like AHAHA HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY! den ivonny n i started laughing like crazy. n guess wad.. lionel was silent. den he said,"guys sorry i dun find it funny." shyt man.. instant guilt smack right across my heart. n i felt guilty for the rest of the nite. n its not juz a tiny "oh sorry" feeling.. but "ARRGHH~! I'M SO SORRRYYY!!! *kiss**hug**hug**hug**more hug*" kinda feeling. like crazily guilty. =( i'm really sorry lionel.
its already tues! n i haven gotten my pay!! I NEED MONEY! might be watching phantom of the opera wif christ. n well... yea guess we're watching nxt wk? dunno man.. nutting much confirmed yet.
been crazily missing zul. i dunno y!! I MISS U BABBY!! watched stomp the yard n columbus short really reminded me of zul. n shyts, i miss him! den i saw him at orchard! on sun. juz wen i was abt to meet des. omg, i was soo damn happy i cldnt stop hugging him n saying i miss him. ahaha.
met up wif des! aft sooo long. he treated me to dinner n "blood n chocolate". tis movie abt warewolfs. quite ok i guess. thnx des for the treat! =)
i'm so so so busy. first is work on weekdays. den i'm gonna help out at james tan vet during the weekends. plus lessons at trueyoga. plus volunteery at mettacats. PLUS! piano grade 8 pract exam n grade 6 theory. gosh overload.
chatting wif zul. make me miss him even more. =(
alright. gotta start working. baaah.
well.. there's nutting much to say aniway. everyday's juz the same ol routine of work.
well. xcept tt these days have been spiced up by someone, christopher... no.. not my new bf.. but well... not juz a normal fren too... have no idea wads it btwn us.. i do like him.. but i dun like him to the extend of love, not even crush. soo.. yea.. complicated issue. hmm.. fling? haha..
aniway, i did a really dumb thing today. brought back work. O_O
well.. i've been working wif i-jin n mr fong on an exhibition for my company. they were discussing how to go abt doing it, den realised tt there's very lil time left. den mr fong was telling me wad i can do.. n by wen i muz finish. n for some funny reason, i heard myself saying i can bring it home to complete. n JUZ wen i said it, realisation dawned on me of how foolish i was! work home?! damn.
lionel juz called saying he juz left his office... thot i cld meet him.. DAMN! i cld have stayed in e office to finish it up den meet him rite? foolish me. den i can apologize to him properly. which brings me to the nxt topic...
played a trick on lionel on the fone on april fool's day wif ivonny. pretended to cry damn badly. saying tt i went out wif tis guy.. he did sumthing to me.. n left me at an unknown place. cried n cried. lionel got super worried, kept asking where i was. n while i was acting, ivonny was on the other line listening... we were conferencing. aft tt i was like AHAHA HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY! den ivonny n i started laughing like crazy. n guess wad.. lionel was silent. den he said,"guys sorry i dun find it funny." shyt man.. instant guilt smack right across my heart. n i felt guilty for the rest of the nite. n its not juz a tiny "oh sorry" feeling.. but "ARRGHH~! I'M SO SORRRYYY!!! *kiss**hug**hug**hug**more hug*" kinda feeling. like crazily guilty. =( i'm really sorry lionel.
its already tues! n i haven gotten my pay!! I NEED MONEY! might be watching phantom of the opera wif christ. n well... yea guess we're watching nxt wk? dunno man.. nutting much confirmed yet.
been crazily missing zul. i dunno y!! I MISS U BABBY!! watched stomp the yard n columbus short really reminded me of zul. n shyts, i miss him! den i saw him at orchard! on sun. juz wen i was abt to meet des. omg, i was soo damn happy i cldnt stop hugging him n saying i miss him. ahaha.
met up wif des! aft sooo long. he treated me to dinner n "blood n chocolate". tis movie abt warewolfs. quite ok i guess. thnx des for the treat! =)
i'm so so so busy. first is work on weekdays. den i'm gonna help out at james tan vet during the weekends. plus lessons at trueyoga. plus volunteery at mettacats. PLUS! piano grade 8 pract exam n grade 6 theory. gosh overload.
chatting wif zul. make me miss him even more. =(
alright. gotta start working. baaah.