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Thursday, December 27, 2007

so my parents are back and flying to china again on nye, leaving my grandma, uncle and aunt there. i'm worried out of my nuts abt her.. so worried my heart aches. have no idea how her condition is.. improving? getting worse? can she walk? is she wide awake? wad if she can nv get back to sg? i know i shldnt be thinking of all these.. tt i shld be hopeful and positive... but wrking at a vet made me set my mind tt life is not that hopeful aft all. one moment you're up and abt.. the nxt moment....
i prayed... and cried as i pray... pls pls pls let her be well... pls....

it shld be sweet and wonderful falling for someone. tt u wanna see or talk to him every living min. but i hate how i'm feeling... coz i noe liking a person like him is WRONG! there's no future, he gets along wif TOO many gals (i will def feel insecure, i already do), pretty sure he doesnt like me, and most importantly, i'll be gone frm sg for 6 yrs! so i'm being nonchalant abt my feelings. there's nutting to talk abt, nutting to ask abt, nutting to discuss abt. he will nv be part of my life... pretty sure tis feeling is juz a passing cloud. it'll be gone b4 i noe it.

HATE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU BOI.

Sunday, December 23, 2007

and he laid his head on my shoulder and said, "haiz i miss jacelyn"
i miss u too kenneth... was great to see ya dance again at waves 12... n boi do i miss dancing. first time being an audience... seems like juz yest wen i performed.. =(

my grandma fainted in china... n went into stroke. haiz.. so worried. they're trying to get a plane back to sg asap... wen my mom called n told me the news, all i cld do was to stare into space. i felt so useless tt i cant help in anithing. all i can do nw is to pray n hope tt everything's gonna be juz fine. tt i'll be able to spend chi new yr seeing my grandma happy.

Friday, December 21, 2007

n so my parents are gone to china... n i'm left alone wif the hse. hope i dun make a mess... my mom was telling me,"i dun wanna come back seeing dirty dishes lying arnd, cockroaches and ants crawling abt, the plants all withered, clothes thrown across the hall and the hse covered wif grime" i gave her a withering look...

i hate how my ex bfs come back n haunt my thots.. they suck up useful brain juices, i need those juices... dun have much to start with. if u're over wif me, den BE over wif me. dun come back n start giving misleading guides. u either show tt u truely juz wanna be my fren, or be gone. like glenn... tts one gd example how an ex can become close frens. =)

shall take a nice lil aftnoon nap.. ah...


changed my blog skin.. YES! tho i still like my previous template.. its time for a change man.. n i'm satisfied.

tho the weather's nice n cold... i can feel my body heating up. my throat itches.. i feel dry.. my lips cracking.. pimples popping out... oh man.. i'm falling sick!

might be going for siloso beach's countdown... if my wrk schedule allows.. gonna try asking amelia to give me an off on new yr.. so tt i can party on eve..

felt so gd today. aft the gym and a nice bath.. i spread my legs open on the floor, cold breeze blowing in from the balcony, newspapers scattered around the coffee table, reading while watching tv, occasionally stretching out those stiff underused limps... stayed like tt for hrs man... it felt utterly greaaaat!

sometimes i hope those ppl tt matters to me, or bothers me, or gives me an impact... just stop reading my blog. coz i sooo wannnaaa type it out!

tmr's gonna be a long day...

Sunday, December 16, 2007

hey ho ppl!! dyed my hair bluish purple! y bluish purple? coz i cant differentiate if its blue or purple!! hahahaha.. wadeva.. the stylist said its bluish violet.. my mom said its purple.. wanted pink at first but the stylist was against it.. said it wont last. so i let him do as he wish! huge risky move.. i noe.. hur hur~

was idling while waiting for the dye to set in.. soo...

i look so toot rite...
these were the scratches i got while trying to catch tis cat-went-berserk. it looks far more worse in real.. now my wrist is swollen n hurting like crazy.. n my fingers r kinda numb.. gonna drop by the doc first thing tmr morn b4 wrk. hope it wont form an abscess.. half of me hope there will be a mc issued... wahahaha...

my lovely baboon n half of pearlyn...
there are a few cats i wanna adopt at jt mann... prob export them to aussie. haiz.. dreams.. hopeless dreams..

Saturday, December 15, 2007

met up wif bun n buv yest. we sat at fort canning n chatted all night. its juz so nice being able to meet up wif them aft so long. for some reason they're a super busy duo.. can barely find time to meet them.

we talked abt bun in aussie.. buv's idiotic bf whom she cannot let go.. men we were wif... how sweet yet assholic they were... wen i suddenly realised i actually forgot how it feels to love. crush yes... admire yes.. like.. all the time.. but love.. hmm..
i'm enjoying life as it is now aniway.. so no complains. getting tied down is the last thing on my mind. well.. considering how much i havoc.. doubt my "bf" can stay wif me for long.. *wink*

back to my personal statement.. i've been editing it for i-dunno-how-many-times. zzzz...

Sunday, December 09, 2007

i have just sent a nudge.

tw says:
wads up

tw just sent you a nudge.

i says:
nutting lorrr

You have just sent a nudge.

tw says: haha
tw says: nudge me for wad

i says: for fun la

tw says: orh
tw says: miss me har
tw says: hahaha.. knn

i says: miss u?! yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
i says: eh we go out on xmas day u wan? or u got plans already?
i says: i damn sad no ppl

tw says: haha. xmas day as in 25th
tw says: u gimme present lor
tw says: jus kidding

i says: give lor
i says: wad u want

tw says: i wan something u cant give

i says: well den TOO BAD
i says: zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

and now he haven given me an ans!! stupid idiot. he complained abt his gf away frm sg... so i'm giving him an option of not sulking at home wallowing in self-pity.
wanna ask ivonny but she prob be out wif her bf. was tinking of glenn.. but he always has plans. i miss lionel! hmmmmmmm... kenneth? owell i'll juz stay home.

i hate rainy days. they make me gloomy.

i got a statement to do. zzz...

suddenly i miss someone. O_o NO GOOOOD!!!!

ok.. i'm gonna go east coast wif tw on xmas day to walk his gf's dog. i tink... oh wadeva. i'll try asking kenneth. oh shyts! juz realised xmas falls on tues. i might neeta wrk overnight! wad a sucker man.

i like st james!! i sooo wanna get drunk some day.. hate having to leave early juz for wrk the nxt day. i wanna be wrk freeee! well at least wrk free on the nxt day of clubbing.

i was pulled on stage by some latin live band. so damn embarrassed. wanted to get off stage but the singer pulled me back by my shirt. so i did my usual hip twist. aft tt i realised how much i miss dancing latin and performing as a competitor. so i'm gonna try finding a partner in aussie. if i can. haiz.
tis guy was hot. tink frm thai? he was dancing tis 40 yr old woman wif a daughter our age. she's crazy man. i mean really... her daughter was wif us the whole night. n she witnessed her mom kiss and hot dancing wif guys. i cant imagine my mom doing tt!! i said tt to sab a zillion times.. but seriously!! O_O

i shld really start on the statement.

Saturday, December 08, 2007

alrighty ppl! i'll be at st james in abt 2 hrs time... WOOHOO!! partaayyee!

today was my mooosst suay day ever. nutting went smoothly man.. literally nutting!
tis was wad i complained to chris.. haha.. i had to find someone to release those pent up frustrations rite?

"first was neeta go to a police station coz we caught a snake. go there close... neeta walk back return the snake.. den walk back to bus stop go get my eng results.. on the way my slipper broke! walk barefooted by the road. flag cab go back change slipper den go back again."
"den aft wrk missed my bus, waited half an hr for the nxt one... until i rot. on the bus fell aslp. missed my stop go all the way to the interchange. den at the interchanged missed the bus back. waited another half an hr for bus! now i still on my way home (at 7pm). i ended wrk at 5!"

haaiz. wad crap. aniwaayy.. i got my IELTS results... 8 pts! yippeee... 8 out of 9. pretty gd eh? hehe.. proud proud.

yesterday was out wif my dearest peiru. took some pics. laughed like crazy man.

haha.. wad crap man..

and now i'm off to partaayyee!

Friday, December 07, 2007

stupid ass tian wen wanted to watch a midnight movie, but he had already watched all the shows i mentioned wif his gf! grr... so we went to macs for some ice cream instead.
it was yet another nice catch up... listening to his usual complains and making fun of them. most importantly making a fool of ourselves. haha. we cld create all kinds of crazy scenarios frm as simple as an audition he had to go for in order to get into NAFA.

and now i'm too full to slp. damn.

murdoch uni requested a 500 wrds statement to be written by me for entry into the sch. aahhH!