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Wednesday, June 27, 2007
taken from sab... nutting better to do now..
Layer 1: On the Outside
name: jacelyn neo sok yee
birth date: 20 march 87
current status: single
eye color hair color: brown
righty or lefty: righty
Layer 2: On the Inside My Heritage:
my fears: insects
my weaknesses: myself
my perfect pizza: anithing w/o pineapples
Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
my thoughts first waking up: can slp longer?
my bedtime: for now.. near 12am.
my most missed memory: being wild and carefree
Layer 4: My Pick
pepsi or coke: none.. dun like carbonated drinks~
mcdonalds or burger king: either's fine..
single or group dates: single.. i rather conc. on 1 person
adidas or nike: adidas
tea or nestea: tea
chocolate or vanilla: chocolate~~~~~!
cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino.. with loadsa foam...
Layer 5: Do you…
smoke: once, but it was a pathetic try.. will nv do it again.
curse: always.. =P
take a shower: of coz..
have a crush: urh.. not really...
think you’ve been in love: was.. it wasnt worth..
go to school: yes...
believe in yourself: sometimes.. depends.. most of the time no..
think you’re a health freak: nah... i always give up trying..
Layer 6: In the past
drank alcohol: yes... still am
gone to the mall: of coz.. i need shopping...
been on stage: often during poly days
eaten sushi: i love sushi~!
dyed your hair: once..
Layer 7: Have you ever…
played a stripping game: noooo.. not with tis kinda body..
Layer 8: Age you’re hoping…
to be married: hopefully by 30?
Layer 9: In a guy
best eye color: blue.... *sighs*
best hair color: ani will do i guess.. not too striking tho...
Layer 10: What were you doing…
a minute ago: surfing the net..
1 hour ago: shopping at suntec
4.5 hours ago: waiting for my parents to pick me from work
1 month ago: working at the architecture firm
1 year ago: working my ass off for sch proj
Layer 11: Finish the sentences…
i love: it when animals show affection
i feel: like resting
I hate: how i'm still unfamiliar wif certain things at work
I hide: most of my feelings
I miss: feeling loved
I need: pay raise.. desperately...
Layer 12: Tag 5 people…
(01) any1
(02) any1
(03) any1
(04) any1! i'm juz being lazy...
______________________________________________________________
tink i'm getting a lil desp.. desp for a bf! wrk's so tiring.. tt the bed alone dun seem to be comfortable enuff.. i wanna crash into someone's arms n fall aslp, while feeling loved, coz tt's the ultimate thing i need in order to feel comfortable n at ease.
but while i'm saying this.. i'm also steering away frm anione showing interest towards me... xcept chris tt is.. he.. complicated matter. haha. i have ppl asking if i wanna chat on the fone, n i'll be like,"nah.. feeling too tired.. wanna rest. u go find some other gal to chat la.. or mayb be gay juz tis once." haha..
guess i dun even need a phone. its so stagnant... other than those i dun wanna tok to.. no one else contacts me. n.. i'm juz too lazy to contact anione. hahaha..
omg wads happening to me?!
Layer 1: On the Outside
name: jacelyn neo sok yee
birth date: 20 march 87
current status: single
eye color hair color: brown
righty or lefty: righty
Layer 2: On the Inside My Heritage:
my fears: insects
my weaknesses: myself
my perfect pizza: anithing w/o pineapples
Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
my thoughts first waking up: can slp longer?
my bedtime: for now.. near 12am.
my most missed memory: being wild and carefree
Layer 4: My Pick
pepsi or coke: none.. dun like carbonated drinks~
mcdonalds or burger king: either's fine..
single or group dates: single.. i rather conc. on 1 person
adidas or nike: adidas
tea or nestea: tea
chocolate or vanilla: chocolate~~~~~!
cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino.. with loadsa foam...
Layer 5: Do you…
smoke: once, but it was a pathetic try.. will nv do it again.
curse: always.. =P
take a shower: of coz..
have a crush: urh.. not really...
think you’ve been in love: was.. it wasnt worth..
go to school: yes...
believe in yourself: sometimes.. depends.. most of the time no..
think you’re a health freak: nah... i always give up trying..
Layer 6: In the past
drank alcohol: yes... still am
gone to the mall: of coz.. i need shopping...
been on stage: often during poly days
eaten sushi: i love sushi~!
dyed your hair: once..
Layer 7: Have you ever…
played a stripping game: noooo.. not with tis kinda body..
Layer 8: Age you’re hoping…
to be married: hopefully by 30?
Layer 9: In a guy
best eye color: blue.... *sighs*
best hair color: ani will do i guess.. not too striking tho...
Layer 10: What were you doing…
a minute ago: surfing the net..
1 hour ago: shopping at suntec
4.5 hours ago: waiting for my parents to pick me from work
1 month ago: working at the architecture firm
1 year ago: working my ass off for sch proj
Layer 11: Finish the sentences…
i love: it when animals show affection
i feel: like resting
I hate: how i'm still unfamiliar wif certain things at work
I hide: most of my feelings
I miss: feeling loved
I need: pay raise.. desperately...
Layer 12: Tag 5 people…
(01) any1
(02) any1
(03) any1
(04) any1! i'm juz being lazy...
______________________________________________________________
tink i'm getting a lil desp.. desp for a bf! wrk's so tiring.. tt the bed alone dun seem to be comfortable enuff.. i wanna crash into someone's arms n fall aslp, while feeling loved, coz tt's the ultimate thing i need in order to feel comfortable n at ease.
but while i'm saying this.. i'm also steering away frm anione showing interest towards me... xcept chris tt is.. he.. complicated matter. haha. i have ppl asking if i wanna chat on the fone, n i'll be like,"nah.. feeling too tired.. wanna rest. u go find some other gal to chat la.. or mayb be gay juz tis once." haha..
guess i dun even need a phone. its so stagnant... other than those i dun wanna tok to.. no one else contacts me. n.. i'm juz too lazy to contact anione. hahaha..
omg wads happening to me?!
Sunday, June 24, 2007
went suntanning wif kenneth aka kl tower on fri... utter disappointment~! tanned for abt an hr n the sun was covered wif rain clouds! baaah. so.. no diff. sux.
aft tanning, realised i forgot to bring my bra n panties, dumb dumber n dumbest~! had to try oh-so-desperately to dry my bikini wif the hand dryer, den tis irritating auntie came n nagged me to let her use the dryer. bloody hell.. i didnt wanna let her, but my ears were rotting so i gave up. went out to complain to kenneth (without bra/bikini)... went back in.. n she was gone. stupid auntie. so i feverishly tried again, but the stupid padding was too thick.. gave up n went ahead to wear it. cldnt let ppl see my nipples poking out of my tee rite?! so yep, my tee was wet frm the bikini, 2 round wet spots! hahahhaha~
so.. we had to go back to my place aft lunch. i got changed, den headed to CDC to sign up for driving theory test. happpyyy~! den aft which we went down to heeren to shop. kenneth shopping spree maaann... bought a pair of flip flops, 1 top n a pair of bermudas. as for me.. nutting. -_-zzZ
aft tt he went home, i went to meet some archi ppl for jianhui's farewell party.
my mom went to qns me who kenneth was. i was like,"fren!!" n she kept asking.. from where? how i get to noe him.. bla bla bla. so irritating. cld have lied to her huh.. cld have said, "my bf. happy?" grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... got bf she dun wan. dun have bf, she want. wth. crapz.
today's yoga was GREAT! tho painfully tiring. ivonny n i did hot yoga. yoga under a high temp. i was sweating like a horse. yippee~! felt great. i need more of those man.. slim downnnn~! =)
life is like a routine now huh... wrk wrk wrk.. fri break.. wrk wrk wrk. can barely differentiate the days. i seriously neeta improve at wrk! no more blur gal sy.. no more~
aft tanning, realised i forgot to bring my bra n panties, dumb dumber n dumbest~! had to try oh-so-desperately to dry my bikini wif the hand dryer, den tis irritating auntie came n nagged me to let her use the dryer. bloody hell.. i didnt wanna let her, but my ears were rotting so i gave up. went out to complain to kenneth (without bra/bikini)... went back in.. n she was gone. stupid auntie. so i feverishly tried again, but the stupid padding was too thick.. gave up n went ahead to wear it. cldnt let ppl see my nipples poking out of my tee rite?! so yep, my tee was wet frm the bikini, 2 round wet spots! hahahhaha~
so.. we had to go back to my place aft lunch. i got changed, den headed to CDC to sign up for driving theory test. happpyyy~! den aft which we went down to heeren to shop. kenneth shopping spree maaann... bought a pair of flip flops, 1 top n a pair of bermudas. as for me.. nutting. -_-zzZ
aft tt he went home, i went to meet some archi ppl for jianhui's farewell party.
my mom went to qns me who kenneth was. i was like,"fren!!" n she kept asking.. from where? how i get to noe him.. bla bla bla. so irritating. cld have lied to her huh.. cld have said, "my bf. happy?" grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... got bf she dun wan. dun have bf, she want. wth. crapz.
today's yoga was GREAT! tho painfully tiring. ivonny n i did hot yoga. yoga under a high temp. i was sweating like a horse. yippee~! felt great. i need more of those man.. slim downnnn~! =)
life is like a routine now huh... wrk wrk wrk.. fri break.. wrk wrk wrk. can barely differentiate the days. i seriously neeta improve at wrk! no more blur gal sy.. no more~
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
home freaking early today.. 6.15pm. was supposed to meet ivo for yoga at orchard.. but someone GOT DATE.. so in the end we cancelled. was so bored tt i decided to change my blog skin... wrds r smaller now.. dun care.. coz i like the pic~!
omg i feel fat frm the lack of exercise.. walking arnd n standing all day at wrk doesnt help me at all! in fact i feel tt i've gained so much! my jeans were sooo tight today tt i cldnt bend down to get my heel. imagine tt! omg.. fat fat fat~ extreme fatness.. i wanna wrk out but i'm always so exhausted frm wrk i dun feel like moving an inch. argh ok i admit.. i'm juz pure lazy. hur hur~ so dumb.. i'm talking to myself.
had been recently tinking of a pretty dumb idea of getting a part-time/night job at another vet centre.. to get MORE experience.. n more money.. haha. but nah.. its juz a desperate thot.. shant go for it.. coz wrking at JT is already tiring n stressful enuff.
tmr's cleaning.. damn tiring.. aft which is movie wif des. so long nv see him already.. hope i wont stink frm wrk. =P
omg i feel fat frm the lack of exercise.. walking arnd n standing all day at wrk doesnt help me at all! in fact i feel tt i've gained so much! my jeans were sooo tight today tt i cldnt bend down to get my heel. imagine tt! omg.. fat fat fat~ extreme fatness.. i wanna wrk out but i'm always so exhausted frm wrk i dun feel like moving an inch. argh ok i admit.. i'm juz pure lazy. hur hur~ so dumb.. i'm talking to myself.
had been recently tinking of a pretty dumb idea of getting a part-time/night job at another vet centre.. to get MORE experience.. n more money.. haha. but nah.. its juz a desperate thot.. shant go for it.. coz wrking at JT is already tiring n stressful enuff.
tmr's cleaning.. damn tiring.. aft which is movie wif des. so long nv see him already.. hope i wont stink frm wrk. =P
Sunday, June 17, 2007
was telling kim wad happened btwn my ex n i.. n it suddenly struck me tt its been 5 months~~~!! omg. so long ago.. haha. n i felt nutting recalling wad happened maann... hur hurrr~~~ n... its been so long since i thot of him... hur hur~~~~ freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! i knew tis day wld come.. who's next? handsome one plsss.. *bitchy*
sexy love.. ooh i love tis song... makes me feel.. so in love... like as if i am... haha.. can listen to tis song over n over again n not get sick over it. cldnt find the real radio version of it.. so i posted the accoustic version. ne-yo's voice is gd~! wanna get his album.
sexy love
boi the things u do
keep me sprung
keep me running back to u
ooh i love, making love to u
baby boi u make me say
ooh ooh ohh..
thot back of how nice he was to me.. how he held my hand.. how he tried to make me relax.. how he did all those things.. n how i was soo not responsive.. damn regret.. no wonder he needed time to stay clear frm me. *slaps myself* how can i not appreciate tt?! wellll.. mayb cozz... feeling's juz not there.. hooomz..
omg wrking at 8 tmr~~!
sexy love.. ooh i love tis song... makes me feel.. so in love... like as if i am... haha.. can listen to tis song over n over again n not get sick over it. cldnt find the real radio version of it.. so i posted the accoustic version. ne-yo's voice is gd~! wanna get his album.
sexy love
boi the things u do
keep me sprung
keep me running back to u
ooh i love, making love to u
baby boi u make me say
ooh ooh ohh..
thot back of how nice he was to me.. how he held my hand.. how he tried to make me relax.. how he did all those things.. n how i was soo not responsive.. damn regret.. no wonder he needed time to stay clear frm me. *slaps myself* how can i not appreciate tt?! wellll.. mayb cozz... feeling's juz not there.. hooomz..
omg wrking at 8 tmr~~!
Friday, June 15, 2007
it was love at first sight
he stood out amngst the others
glistering under the bright neon lights
i cld see him smiling at me
cld not resist myself n reached out
we linked the moment our skins touched
our bodies entwined
he was rough yet lovingly comfortable
thot of him for over a month
going back to visit, to hold, to touch, just for awhile
i wanted him so much
we met again today
it was mind blowingly crazy
i cld not let him go
finally, today's the day
we are together.. forever..
pic of him... my lovely... my baby...
hur hur~~~~~ ok it doesnt look as nice in tis pic.. looks abit cheapo..but its not~! costs $135.35. n it was hiding at tis corner.. took me so long to search for tis baby! first saw it at tangs more than a month ago, den went to PS's shop to search today. boi the temptation was too great to resist! hehe. lee hua bought a wallet n bag (rich gal), rf's fren bought a bag, cp bought a wallet.. all guess! its the Guess Craze babay~! =)
i miss chris.. really do..
wonder if he still reads here..
but not crazily tt is... wrking at the vet takes my mind away almost everything.. n i'll be so exhausted at the end of the day tt i can onli tink abt slp... blessing in disguise?
still frustrated abt how lost i am tho.. goodness.. the amnt of things i neeta learn.. =(
Sunday, June 10, 2007
wrk today was... demoralising~! got scolded so many times. argh.. be strong.. be strong.
cant u see i'm trying so hard to get things rite?
cant u see tt i truely care how things turn out btwn us?
y r u still so nonchalant towards me?
y cant u be like how u were b4?
is it too late for me to recuperate?
is it too late to bring things back to how it was?
its so hurting to see u not caring animore
its hurting to noe u're not making an effort animore
do u hate me so much?
did i give u such a bad impression?
y did it turn out to be like tis?
i'm tired.. tired of trying so hard
tired of making an effort
tired of putting up wif u
tired of how u r towards me
tired of tinking abt it all the time
tired of wanting to hear/see u happy
tired of caring so much
wanna give up... but i juz cant!!! its juz soo upsetting n i wanna get things right. tis is sumthing i hate abt myself.. always believing tt probs can always be solved... trying like crazy to change the situation.. onli disappointing myself wen it doesnt wrk out.
me says:
wad u doing now?
him says:
reading paper
him says:
why?
me says:
juz asking lro
him says:
u wanna have another trashing match wit me ah
me says:
huh?
me says:
no.. y..
him says:
ok
wad is fucking wrong wif him?! cant i juz gggiiive up n stop anithing wif him like wad i do wif some of of those guys?
so tired... i need a break frm tis emotional ride...
cant u see i'm trying so hard to get things rite?
cant u see tt i truely care how things turn out btwn us?
y r u still so nonchalant towards me?
y cant u be like how u were b4?
is it too late for me to recuperate?
is it too late to bring things back to how it was?
its so hurting to see u not caring animore
its hurting to noe u're not making an effort animore
do u hate me so much?
did i give u such a bad impression?
y did it turn out to be like tis?
i'm tired.. tired of trying so hard
tired of making an effort
tired of putting up wif u
tired of how u r towards me
tired of tinking abt it all the time
tired of wanting to hear/see u happy
tired of caring so much
wanna give up... but i juz cant!!! its juz soo upsetting n i wanna get things right. tis is sumthing i hate abt myself.. always believing tt probs can always be solved... trying like crazy to change the situation.. onli disappointing myself wen it doesnt wrk out.
me says:
wad u doing now?
him says:
reading paper
him says:
why?
me says:
juz asking lro
him says:
u wanna have another trashing match wit me ah
me says:
huh?
me says:
no.. y..
him says:
ok
wad is fucking wrong wif him?! cant i juz gggiiive up n stop anithing wif him like wad i do wif some of of those guys?
so tired... i need a break frm tis emotional ride...
Saturday, June 09, 2007
Helping sick animals and others less fortunate than you may be the best possible medicine for your soul these days. Remember, you compassionate Pisces are often found nuturing those in need for good reason: you care deeply about the welfare of others. It really doesn't matter if you assist at a hospital, a church or at your four-legged rescue shelter. Just find a way to put your need to serve to good use.
cool!~ i'm doing wad the horoscope stated. hahaha. n i dare say tt i've been in a pretty light mood tis days. aft wrk tt is.. not sure abt during...
i'm still lost~! freaking lost.. well.. yea i'm somewhat familiar wif certain things.. but its juz so not me to sink into my own world of thots. juz dun seem to fit in wif them.. n i juz cant contribute to their conversations. there r ppl who actually said i look so demure n quiet... O_O omg.. wait till they see how crazy i can get huh... kept telling myself to step out of tt freaking shell n speak up n be more open.. at least tt way i can learn more, n be happier.. but i juz cant! y oh y oh yyyy... i need more time.. yes i need more time.
met up wif lionel aft wrk today. wif mark, mark's bro, n mark's fren. had dinner.. chatted a lil.. aft which lion n i left to shop arnd. RnB hits were playing at every corner of orchard~! n i makes me wanna cllluub!! i wanna daaance~! argh. i foresee myself having muscle spasms someday from controlling it too much.
ohoh~! yest lion n i took 70 frm paya lebar to marina sq.. n wen it was the stop b4.. the bus was empty~! onli 2 of us..cooool rite?! so we took some pics b4 getting down... hur hur~!
feel so baaad. had been neglecting cha cha. sobz.
wrk tmrrr~ den meeting ltc peeps. yippee!
cool!~ i'm doing wad the horoscope stated. hahaha. n i dare say tt i've been in a pretty light mood tis days. aft wrk tt is.. not sure abt during...
i'm still lost~! freaking lost.. well.. yea i'm somewhat familiar wif certain things.. but its juz so not me to sink into my own world of thots. juz dun seem to fit in wif them.. n i juz cant contribute to their conversations. there r ppl who actually said i look so demure n quiet... O_O omg.. wait till they see how crazy i can get huh... kept telling myself to step out of tt freaking shell n speak up n be more open.. at least tt way i can learn more, n be happier.. but i juz cant! y oh y oh yyyy... i need more time.. yes i need more time.
met up wif lionel aft wrk today. wif mark, mark's bro, n mark's fren. had dinner.. chatted a lil.. aft which lion n i left to shop arnd. RnB hits were playing at every corner of orchard~! n i makes me wanna cllluub!! i wanna daaance~! argh. i foresee myself having muscle spasms someday from controlling it too much.
ohoh~! yest lion n i took 70 frm paya lebar to marina sq.. n wen it was the stop b4.. the bus was empty~! onli 2 of us..cooool rite?! so we took some pics b4 getting down... hur hur~!
feel so baaad. had been neglecting cha cha. sobz.wrk tmrrr~ den meeting ltc peeps. yippee!
Monday, June 04, 2007
wrk is so tiring everyday tt its killing me.. cant seem to wake up on time every morning~ hafta get my parents to fetch me. argh. i GOTTA WAKE UP ON TIME~!
3rd day at wrk n i'm still not very sure. or they juz dun trust me in certain aspects? its medical related aft all.. great risks at hand. i gotta lower my expectation n go step by step. i'm expecting too much.. n am too hungry for too much information for me to digest well.
coming home is always so depressing coz there's always nutting for me to do. n my mind wanders like crazy.
went to the idp fair. witnessing so many signing up for uni made me turn green wif envy. n while queueing for murdoch uni.. i heard tt someone already had an acceptance letter for vet sc.. n they juz wanna clear up some of their queries... damn. i was jealous, envious, n furious, all at once. felt so upset tt i left... lastly ashamed of myself for being so useless.
didnt talk to ani uni... wad do i have to ask abt? i've been to it twice asking abt the same thing.
went vivo wif lion fad n irwin. shopping wif 3 guys.. for the first time the gal does the waiting.. haha. fad said i'm cool in a sexy way (or sumthing meant like tt). interesting.. had nv hear someone say tt to me. wonder wad he meant by tt coz i cant see it in myself. how can someone so fat be sexy?
another long day tmr~
3rd day at wrk n i'm still not very sure. or they juz dun trust me in certain aspects? its medical related aft all.. great risks at hand. i gotta lower my expectation n go step by step. i'm expecting too much.. n am too hungry for too much information for me to digest well.
coming home is always so depressing coz there's always nutting for me to do. n my mind wanders like crazy.
went to the idp fair. witnessing so many signing up for uni made me turn green wif envy. n while queueing for murdoch uni.. i heard tt someone already had an acceptance letter for vet sc.. n they juz wanna clear up some of their queries... damn. i was jealous, envious, n furious, all at once. felt so upset tt i left... lastly ashamed of myself for being so useless.
didnt talk to ani uni... wad do i have to ask abt? i've been to it twice asking abt the same thing.
went vivo wif lion fad n irwin. shopping wif 3 guys.. for the first time the gal does the waiting.. haha. fad said i'm cool in a sexy way (or sumthing meant like tt). interesting.. had nv hear someone say tt to me. wonder wad he meant by tt coz i cant see it in myself. how can someone so fat be sexy?
another long day tmr~
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Empty
Are your words
That contradicts all your actions
Are your eyes
That pretends to understand & see
Are the vows
You defaced and discarded
Are your promises
Delivered to me with no intent
Are your arms
That pulled me in and then pushed me away
Are your feelings
That are shallow and forged
Are your apologies
Freely
Are the cards & letters
That echoes the words of each previous one
Are the tomorrows
Which you unfaithfully stripped away from me
Is the heart and soul of the man that
Maliciously deceived, betrayed, dishonored, and callously
held my heart, soul, respect, and unconditional love
Are your words
That contradicts all your actions
Are your eyes
That pretends to understand & see
Are the vows
You defaced and discarded
Are your promises
Delivered to me with no intent
Are your arms
That pulled me in and then pushed me away
Are your feelings
That are shallow and forged
Are your apologies
Freely
Are the cards & letters
That echoes the words of each previous one
Are the tomorrows
Which you unfaithfully stripped away from me
Is the heart and soul of the man that
Maliciously deceived, betrayed, dishonored, and callously
held my heart, soul, respect, and unconditional love
I’m angry because I can’t tell you how angry I am.
I’m angry that it makes me hurt when I see, hear or write your name – even
when it isn’t you who’s being referred to.
I’m angry that you led me to believe you wanted a life with me.
I’m angry that I can’t just come over your place when I feel like it.
I’m angry because I can’t talk to you.
I’m angry because I’m lonely.
I’m angry that I don’t know exactly when you began disregarding my feelings.
I’m angry that I don’t know what things you said were true and which were not.
I’m angry you never tried.
I’m angry I fell in love with you.
I’m angry because I don’t have a crush on anyone right now.
I’m angry because I haven’t been happy for months.
I’m angry I can’t just make things right.
I’m angry when strangers in stores or on the street tell me to “smile.”
I’m angry that you are having fun and not suffering like I am.
I’m angry that I’m jealous of whoever’s in your life now.
I’m angry that I believed for so long that you loved me.
I’m angry I haven’t moved on.
I’m angry that I feel like crying right now.
I’m angry because I can never have a truly honest conversation with you.
I’m angry because I have to avoid you.
I’m angry that it hurts when I see things you would like or be interested in – or
when I hear someone else talk about them.
I’m angry there are so many of those things.
I’m angry that I don’t have someone telling me that I’m sexy.
I’m angry I shared so many personal secrets and fears with you.
I’m angry that I don’t really know you at all.
I’m angry I will never know how much meaning our relationship had for you.
I’m angry because I will never know how you really felt about me.
I’m angry because I still think of you.
I’m angry that it makes me hurt when I see, hear or write your name – even
when it isn’t you who’s being referred to.
I’m angry that you led me to believe you wanted a life with me.
I’m angry that I can’t just come over your place when I feel like it.
I’m angry because I can’t talk to you.
I’m angry because I’m lonely.
I’m angry that I don’t know exactly when you began disregarding my feelings.
I’m angry that I don’t know what things you said were true and which were not.
I’m angry you never tried.
I’m angry I fell in love with you.
I’m angry because I don’t have a crush on anyone right now.
I’m angry because I haven’t been happy for months.
I’m angry I can’t just make things right.
I’m angry when strangers in stores or on the street tell me to “smile.”
I’m angry that you are having fun and not suffering like I am.
I’m angry that I’m jealous of whoever’s in your life now.
I’m angry that I believed for so long that you loved me.
I’m angry I haven’t moved on.
I’m angry that I feel like crying right now.
I’m angry because I can never have a truly honest conversation with you.
I’m angry because I have to avoid you.
I’m angry that it hurts when I see things you would like or be interested in – or
when I hear someone else talk about them.
I’m angry there are so many of those things.
I’m angry that I don’t have someone telling me that I’m sexy.
I’m angry I shared so many personal secrets and fears with you.
I’m angry that I don’t really know you at all.
I’m angry I will never know how much meaning our relationship had for you.
I’m angry because I will never know how you really felt about me.
I’m angry because I still think of you.
2nd day of wrk at the vet. omg. i got no rest for the weekends.. the onli off day i have is fri. i juz gotta get used to tis wrking hrs.
had been feeling uglier n uglier as the days go by. i have ppl telling me i'm cute.. pretty... but omg.. i seriously think they're blind. i have strangers on frenster saying they wanna noe me.. bla bla bla.. (i'm pretty sure ani gal will get tis kinda things).. but each time i'll look thru the pics i posted, i find myself wondering wad the hell did tis guys see in me?!
i feel fat. SO FAT! so wad if i look ok? my body turns ppl off.
i wanna dress up.. i wanna look nice wif wad i wear.. but noooo.. i cant wif tis freaking huge body.
had been browsing thru frenster coz its soo boring at home having nutting to do. n i'll see guys happily attached wif a freaking pretty gf (wif a gd bod), n i'll get even more upset. is tt it? tt onli pretty gals will be happy? i'm ugly n fat.. will i EVER be appreciated?
falling sick.. great...
had been feeling uglier n uglier as the days go by. i have ppl telling me i'm cute.. pretty... but omg.. i seriously think they're blind. i have strangers on frenster saying they wanna noe me.. bla bla bla.. (i'm pretty sure ani gal will get tis kinda things).. but each time i'll look thru the pics i posted, i find myself wondering wad the hell did tis guys see in me?!
i feel fat. SO FAT! so wad if i look ok? my body turns ppl off.
i wanna dress up.. i wanna look nice wif wad i wear.. but noooo.. i cant wif tis freaking huge body.
had been browsing thru frenster coz its soo boring at home having nutting to do. n i'll see guys happily attached wif a freaking pretty gf (wif a gd bod), n i'll get even more upset. is tt it? tt onli pretty gals will be happy? i'm ugly n fat.. will i EVER be appreciated?
falling sick.. great...