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Thursday, February 19, 2009

its all fading

we're fading

dunno wad to do

Friday, February 13, 2009

sry but i neeta brag abt tis... coz i'm dddaamnnn HAPPY!!! =))))

Dear Jacelyn
I am delighted to say that we would like to offer you a place in the vet course 2009, starting next week. I am sorry for the late notice, but just now are able to work out final numbers enrolled, and I hope you will be able to take up this place.
Congratulations!
Please let me know if there are any problems.
Regards
Anne

tis email may be abit informal, but i dun care coz wads impt is.. I GOT INTO VET!
dun care whether i've been rejected before and given a space after ppl... I GOT INTO VET!
weeeeeeeheeeeeee. hohohohoho.

went to orientation w a sli hangover tho. wad to do.. neeta celebrate wad. =)))

and seeing tat sean was happy seeing me happy (make sense?).. made me happy! we were hugging and kissing and jumping arnd.. and hugging.. and kissing...
plus waking up w an awesome hug and "i'm glad u got into vet babe"
compensated all those depressing days we had
=)))

on a serious note... now tt i'm in.. the real terror starts.
its gonna be a tough 5 years of balancing btwn studies and fun.
i know i'm gonna be f-ing stressed up and might not be able to cope w so much studying.
i will definitely be depressed, i always do.
i'm not as smart as my other classmates, who are geniuses and tt scares me like crazy, and i'll have to put in twice as much hard work just to catch up.
and my dear eunice wont be there w me. i hate tt fact. dunno how to face her.. and it hurts knowing she wants tis as much as i do. i know how she feels n theres really nutting much i can say or do.. =(
went to orientation today realising how lonely i was. like i'm being thrown back to first yr, well technically i am. so i gotta find tt clique fast..

and thnnnxxx so much EVERYONE for putting up w my depressed moments. u guys are such great frenssss! love lovesss

not gonna let my parent's money go to waste. i'm damn scared i will actually.. damn scared i might fail the units. but i really cant let them down, knowing how proud and happy they were. they've gone thru shit for me.. i'll go thru shit for them and def for myself. =)))

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

I GOT INTO VET!!!

I FUCKING HELL GOT INTO VET!!

VEEETT!!!

VVVVVVEEEEEEEEETTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, February 09, 2009

i hate arguements
they make me really tired
n i juz wanna slp it away

things are so different now
no more lovey dovey cuddling at the sofa
watching movies wif our arms arnd each other
kissing gd night
wrestling
tickles
nice tight hugs

tension so high
false smiles everyday
awkward conversations
long still silences

wad happened?

Thursday, February 05, 2009

tis sux.. i came back to perth early to be w sean.. hoping things will turn better. n get my mind off things.

but all he does he hang out w jake.
was busy w sch.. but his last day was today.
he doesnt make ani plans w me.
he seem distant.
seem to always be tired.
dun even tell me wad the fuck he's up to.
doesnt smile or laugh as much wen he's w me.
dun knock on my door like he used to, juz to find out wad i'm doing.

i regret moving into the same flat as him. wad if things happen? i'm gonna be stuck facing him.

Sunday, February 01, 2009

all everyone can say is.. keep trying lor.. keep trying..
but do they noe how hard i've tried?
almost the whole of my life, i've been aiming for it.
n for almost the whole of my life, my path seem to be blocked.
will they understand how much i've been thru to inch my way to it?
only to be rejected, AGAIN!

i totally hate ppl, who is lucky enuff to get wad they want, but dun treasure it. or, ppl who insist on wanting to achieve sumthing, but dun wrk hard for it. i've met so many of them, n i try not to say anithing. but deep inside, i wanna scream at them, coz they do not know how lucky they are.

sumtimes i wish i dun have tt much passion for vet. sumtimes i wish i am like some who dun even have dreams. they studied for the sake of studying, satisfied wif ani course they land in.

so yes, i study another yr of biomed. den? wad if i get rejected again? dun tell me i wont, coz it already shows no matter how gd my results are, or how much experiences i get, it will still happen.. SO DUN SAY "ur results already so gd.. confirm get in one laa" DON'T!

n its not onli abt trying again n again yr aft yr. i neeta tink abt my parents. they dun have a stable salary, it depends on how gd their business is. vet is not cheap, its 1 of the most expensive courses, n the fee increases every yr, its already AUD$37,000 now. n my brother wanna study even aft his degree. i cant keep tinking abt myself. i got issues to consider.

i'm not aiming tis to anione in particular. everyone's been really supportive n i'm really thnkful. i juz hate tis situation i'm in now.