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Tuesday, December 30, 2008

wenever i'm sad n feeling lonely
i hope i can speak to someone who will cheer me up
but ppl always throw back their probs, expecting me to console them, like i always do.
n i did.

but i'm sick n tired of having to tink abt their probs
wen i have my own
instead of having frens to make me feel better
i neeta add their sorrows into mine

Sunday, December 28, 2008

rest in peace my dear fren.

ina: wad happened to tammin?! y u nv tell me? so sudden..

Saturday, December 27, 2008

my mind's filled w the image of him laying on the hosp bed.
i pray and hope so hard tt he will wake up and recover
there is always hope

treasure the ppl arnd u
u nv noe wad will happen

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

ok i've not been blogging the way ppl do.. type out every shit they go thru each day. but i shall for today. juz to waste time. beware! text heavy. (LOL! in contrast to "picture heavy!")

the day started w a call frm my parents. they wanna take me out for groceries shopping so tt i can cook at home while they were in china, at the same time visit my grandma who was admitted into the hosp in the morning. BUT! i was meetin pearl at 3, so i had to text her to change the meeting time.

soooo... the day started w the trip to the hosp to visit my grandma. she was so frail and weak. i hated seeing her like tis. it juz weakens me. drains off all my energy. makes me wanna juz sit down n stone n tink abt how much we muz treasure the ppl arnd us.

den we drove down to my bro's sch to get the mahjong table and sets frm his hostel for his party at home later at night. man... the whole trip was exhausting. we had to drop him off some place to look for his fren for the key to his room. den drove to his block to fetch the mahjong table and sets. den i got lost coz the carpark was on the 3rd floor instead of the 1st! argh. thnk god tis guy helped me.

AFT TT... we went to jurong pt for groceries shopping. maaann.. there were SO MANY ppl.

we den head down to my bro's gf's place to get her. and FINALLY got me to town..

poor pearl were in town since 2 waiting for me. i onli got there at 6. i wanted to DIEEE! jasmine joined us and we had dinner followed by movies! while we were waiting for time to pass, we randomly went to take neoprints! LIKE F-ING RANDOM!! it was so random and brainless i love it. hahaha~

OMG! nora and nick's infinite playlist WAS GD!! go watch it ppl. damn funny! and gross. lol.

aft movies was pool at parkway den macs at east coast.

now i'm home at 2.30am n decided not to slp coz i'm going to send my parents off at the airport at 5am.

thats the reason for tis nonsensical totally unnecessary blog entry. i juz neeta take my mind off how tired i am, which i juz reminded myself by typing it out. O_O

i miss sean. its craaazzyyYY! he's sick and i wanna be there for him. =(
i'm gonna have the whole hse to myself wen my parents are in china, n he wanna be here. i wish he's here too. =(

i've not been to any clubs since sean left. i'm been sane n free frm alcohol. its making me depressed!! ME NEETA CLLLUBBB!! but i got no money. sobs. me shall be a gd girl. damn tt sux.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Thursday, December 18, 2008

=) my loves.


i can stare at it forever.



he sent me an sms once he touched down, n an offline msg wen he got home. totally made my day. wish i was back at perth w him.

i lost my cam. there goes the pics we took. sobs. made my mom promise to buy me a new cam once i get the acception letter into vet. WAHAHA.

i can feel them evil fat cells forming again. neeta start wrking out. once my ripped toe heals. which will take forever.

nows time to catch up precious time w my frens n family. once there's cash.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

he went in only 1 hour ago and i'm missing him already. =(

now time to hibernate. no cash left.

Sunday, December 07, 2008

soo booreed!

5 more days home!!

i had the biggest fight wif him eva. he was shouting and cursing and smacking the steering wheel while driving home. i was soo scared we'll get into an accident. but i was shouting back at him as well.. n the anger kinda overwhelmed all other thots. but all's well now. n we've nv been happier.

its weird how fights can turns things over.. n make things even better.

all i can tink of now is to fly back home. w him. =)

Thursday, December 04, 2008

i found out sean lied to me

I'M SO NOT HAPPY

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

hi

i'm bored

and i feel i dun have many frens

n tt is sad



i'm so sick of all tis crazy mood swings.

wad can i do to make myself feel satisfied?

stepped on the weighing scale. lost 5 kg during the exams..

n i feel i need to lose more! like.. another 5kg more?

i'm still fucking fat! my breast is still too HUGE!



ppl always tell me "gosh jace! how can u say u dun have many frens? u noe so many ppl arnd"

but i dont!! they're all acquintances. ppl i go out to socialise wif.

who will eventually be willing to stay thru the night w me while i cry like a mothafucking loser?

who will still be my fren and contact me n ask me how i am 10 yrs down the road?

its sad.. its so sad...



i've been reading thru my previous blog entries (YES i do tt, dun judge)

n i realised, sean-related-emotions is like a roller-coaster ride

one moment i'm WAY UP THERE, flying high, oh-so-happeeeee

the nxt thing i crash head down into concrete, breaking every single bone n dignity

well thats how a relationship is

i juz cant wait for him to be in sg.

ITS GONNA BE AWESOME!!



oh! n he's gonna bring me shopping for my xmas gift

its not the most romantic thing eva

but i'm juz gonna accept the fact tt he's juz not like tt

but at least i can pick wad i like!! instead of having to suffer under his bad taste.

*huge grin*




rented 6 dvds n gonna rot at home and be a couch potato

dun tink i'm gonna go out to the club tonight. short of cash.

cant wait to get back to sg