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Monday, July 31, 2006
major headache!! aaah. my proj's killing me. woke up early tis morning n realised i dun have much time left. OMG! i still have soo much to do. hurrily went to wash up n juz wen i settled down, my parents want me to go for lunch wif em. so i had no choice but to go. went back to work once i got back to home. but the freaking lunch was making me so slpy! cldnt conc at all. so i went to rest for a while.. den i fell aslp! unknowingly. shyts. slpt till 8+, parents woke me up for dinner. omg.. went to the comp to do sum editing, till they rushed me out of the hse. n here i am aft dinner. STUCK! haiz. n motivationless. =(
feel like i'm sooo not gonna do well for yr 3. having to noe tt i have juz a few mnths more to leaving tis shitty course, my motivation juz gets lower n lower. i mean, y do so well wen u're not gonna cont.? well.. i may tink so.. but there's juz sumthing at the back of my mind telling me tt i shldnt be lazing arnd. coz its my mom's money i'm spending on man... i cant juz waste it all like tt.. at least a gd grade for tis diploma to show tt her money's not gone to waste. n... i cant get a bad result man!! imagine a cert full of Ds. omg.. tt won't look gd.
contradicting. haiz. tts y i'm suffering so much. n its killing me. gotta persevere. n not let the devil get the better of me. juz 2 more weeks to subm sy!! juz work f*cking hard for tis nxt 2 wks!
feel like i'm sooo not gonna do well for yr 3. having to noe tt i have juz a few mnths more to leaving tis shitty course, my motivation juz gets lower n lower. i mean, y do so well wen u're not gonna cont.? well.. i may tink so.. but there's juz sumthing at the back of my mind telling me tt i shldnt be lazing arnd. coz its my mom's money i'm spending on man... i cant juz waste it all like tt.. at least a gd grade for tis diploma to show tt her money's not gone to waste. n... i cant get a bad result man!! imagine a cert full of Ds. omg.. tt won't look gd.
contradicting. haiz. tts y i'm suffering so much. n its killing me. gotta persevere. n not let the devil get the better of me. juz 2 more weeks to subm sy!! juz work f*cking hard for tis nxt 2 wks!
Thursday, July 27, 2006
stomach's growling like hell. waiting for ma to finish cooking. HURRY~! i can feel my stomach juices digesting the walls instead. aah. skipped lunch. my aim from now on.. to have onli 2 meals a day. wanna slim down.. at least slightly.. for the upcoming competition. gotta make sure the costume look gd on me.
today's dance lesson was... hmm.. quite gd i guess. except for an incident.. theres tis move wen lion had to place his right leg in btwn mine, den we slide open together. well.. guess he aimed too high? he.. urh... hit my pubic bone. oww.. like really.. ooooooww. guess later on he felt rrreaally conscious abt it? coz he didnt dare to dance closer to me. n i had to constantly remind him to wrap his arm arnd my waist. haha.. but overall was ok laaa... except tt my feet hurt so much i cldnt walk properly. part n parcel of dance! yeap.
gonna work damn late tonight. rush for proj. oooh food!
today's dance lesson was... hmm.. quite gd i guess. except for an incident.. theres tis move wen lion had to place his right leg in btwn mine, den we slide open together. well.. guess he aimed too high? he.. urh... hit my pubic bone. oww.. like really.. ooooooww. guess later on he felt rrreaally conscious abt it? coz he didnt dare to dance closer to me. n i had to constantly remind him to wrap his arm arnd my waist. haha.. but overall was ok laaa... except tt my feet hurt so much i cldnt walk properly. part n parcel of dance! yeap.
gonna work damn late tonight. rush for proj. oooh food!
Sunday, July 23, 2006
done nutting for my proj... nu-ah-ting. gosh. so dead. reaaaally dead. oh wad the heck. hehe. i've been eating so much! getting huge at my mid section. n to tink i got a competition coming up! aah. n to tink... i got a costume to fit in! n to tink.. its rather revealing! aah. hehe. ok.. of coz not as revealing as my frens'. i'm not tt open abt my body. =P
aniway. was at shawn n gladys danceworld again yest to pract. i like the rumba routine!!!! looovve it! so nice. *huge smile* if lion n i were lovers it'll be puuurrfect! of coz we're not. gonna master it. HAFTA! hehe. cant stop tinking abt the routine man... makes me wanna dance even more. which is a gd thing! a motivation. wahaha.
was at the cheesecake cafe today wif jinyi n axel. the ambience was nice.. the cake was.. not bad. but ex man. super ex. spent 13 bucks wif onli a walnut cheesecake n lemon tea. gosh. stupid axel kept making fun of tis monk in the cafe.. he kept saying "namo namo namo". like wth la! but aniway, wads a monk doing in a cheesecake cafe having cheesecake? it was a weird. hmmm.
sumthing's wrong wif the internet connection. slow.. sux.. mayb its a sign.. tt i shld go do my proj instead of surfing the net. yea. work~!
aniway. was at shawn n gladys danceworld again yest to pract. i like the rumba routine!!!! looovve it! so nice. *huge smile* if lion n i were lovers it'll be puuurrfect! of coz we're not. gonna master it. HAFTA! hehe. cant stop tinking abt the routine man... makes me wanna dance even more. which is a gd thing! a motivation. wahaha.
was at the cheesecake cafe today wif jinyi n axel. the ambience was nice.. the cake was.. not bad. but ex man. super ex. spent 13 bucks wif onli a walnut cheesecake n lemon tea. gosh. stupid axel kept making fun of tis monk in the cafe.. he kept saying "namo namo namo". like wth la! but aniway, wads a monk doing in a cheesecake cafe having cheesecake? it was a weird. hmmm.
sumthing's wrong wif the internet connection. slow.. sux.. mayb its a sign.. tt i shld go do my proj instead of surfing the net. yea. work~!
Thursday, July 20, 2006
i officially label myself as the laziest person on earth. everyone in archi is slogging away like hell for the upcoming proj subm... n here i am surfing blogs. i'm supposed to be doing my gfa calculations! yea.. did sit down for a while... n onli calculated my 1st storey. argh. the thot of trying to find a way to calc the gross area of each specific space juz bores me. n how smart of me to create spaces which has funny shapes... so.. i hafta wreck my brain on HOW to get the formula in finding the area. further more the geometric formulas i learnt in sec sch had been thrown back to whoever taught me. aargggh. how the hell did i get A for my a math?! -_-
the past few days had been pretty depressing. firstly, came back wif nutting frm the KL comp, den my results for jc2 are like CRAP, all Cs, which i dun understand y. den dear n i have been quarrelling like theres no tmr... it was bad... i felt like a loser... nutting accomplished, nutting tt i'm gd at.. i had to grab an ice cream n a choc bar, sat down in front of the tv, juz to get my mind off wadeva tt is depressing me. it worked. amazingly. my mind was distracted coz of CSI n the interesting investigations... n wadeva "happy" hormones tt were stimulated frm the ice cream n choc took away those emotions. felt better... wanted to do work... onli to feel damn slpy. so yeap, no work done till today. n i'm still slacking!
today's pract was yet another depressing one. coz it reminded me of the competition. almost cried. arrrgh. i feel sooo silly. like come on la! y the hell am i still tinking abt it? well... mainly coz i didnt have a partner to dance wif coz lion will onli join at 7.30. felt so freaking useless there. den wen he finally came for pract, it was so bad. our standard... tink we're the worse amngst all the couples in e club. so depressed laaa. =(
tink i better get back to work.. finish all my gfa calc.
the past few days had been pretty depressing. firstly, came back wif nutting frm the KL comp, den my results for jc2 are like CRAP, all Cs, which i dun understand y. den dear n i have been quarrelling like theres no tmr... it was bad... i felt like a loser... nutting accomplished, nutting tt i'm gd at.. i had to grab an ice cream n a choc bar, sat down in front of the tv, juz to get my mind off wadeva tt is depressing me. it worked. amazingly. my mind was distracted coz of CSI n the interesting investigations... n wadeva "happy" hormones tt were stimulated frm the ice cream n choc took away those emotions. felt better... wanted to do work... onli to feel damn slpy. so yeap, no work done till today. n i'm still slacking!
today's pract was yet another depressing one. coz it reminded me of the competition. almost cried. arrrgh. i feel sooo silly. like come on la! y the hell am i still tinking abt it? well... mainly coz i didnt have a partner to dance wif coz lion will onli join at 7.30. felt so freaking useless there. den wen he finally came for pract, it was so bad. our standard... tink we're the worse amngst all the couples in e club. so depressed laaa. =(
tink i better get back to work.. finish all my gfa calc.
Sunday, July 16, 2006
trying really hard to hold back my tears. tis suck. dun understand y i'm feeling so much abt the competition.. abt the fact tt i didnt win... or at least get into the finals. got nutting. i'm happy for my frens tho... who got into the finals n got pretty gd results.
its weird. i've nv cried over a competition. i always accepted the fact n move on. but somehow its a big blow for me tis time... mayb coz its my first time competing overseas. but if so.. y the hell did i cry? axel was juz sharing his disappointment to me, n i got affected. seriously didnt expect to react tt way. its juz a fucking competition man..
is it coz of my period? i always feel like crap during tis time. argh.. no.. menses is not a gd excuse. y the emotions?! haiz... i need a hug.
y y y y? am i tt bad a dancer? or mayb coz i'm fat.... dancers are not supposed to be fat man.. wad am i doing dancing? i dont even fit the title of being a dancer.
its weird. i've nv cried over a competition. i always accepted the fact n move on. but somehow its a big blow for me tis time... mayb coz its my first time competing overseas. but if so.. y the hell did i cry? axel was juz sharing his disappointment to me, n i got affected. seriously didnt expect to react tt way. its juz a fucking competition man..
is it coz of my period? i always feel like crap during tis time. argh.. no.. menses is not a gd excuse. y the emotions?! haiz... i need a hug.
y y y y? am i tt bad a dancer? or mayb coz i'm fat.... dancers are not supposed to be fat man.. wad am i doing dancing? i dont even fit the title of being a dancer.
Monday, July 10, 2006
skipped sch today. enjoying the bliss of staying home. had tis bad headache tis morning, so bad i cldnt get out of bed.
kinda bored now, nutting on tv.. nutting to do online. hmmm.. owells.
went to pract at shawn n gladys for the first time on sat. it was quite effective i guess. i was sooo tired i cld barely breathe. met adam.. farnie... he typed tis on his blog:
after some sets of cha cha, sok yee came and tap me.
i was shocked.
at first i couldn't recognise her.
i was like thinking, hmm, who is this girl etc
but then i remember a familiar pair of eyes and all.
it was sexy lah.
hmm, its been years since we last saw each other.
both of us did changed a lot i think.
yea.
she's a good dancer.
and she's competing in the same event.
lol.
makes me more nervous and all.
after all, i danced only like 1 month plus?
yeah.
haha.. u flatter me handsome. =P dun worry man.. u're a gd dancer too. shake those bon bons! hehe..
aniway, melvin made us go thru a mock comp. i had to be on the dance floor 3 times. beginner cha cha, beginner jive n grade D (cha cha n jive). i was sooo exhausted, esp aft grade D. tot i cld rest, den mel said to rest for 5 mins n he'll go thru the mock comp again. AHH! almost died. n at a pt of time i was soo afraid tt lion will have an asthma attack. omg.. my stamina is soo bad. gosh... hope we'll do fine for the kl comp.
our arguements' getting worse. hope we make it thru tis. will we? or will tis be a permanent prob tt will last thru wadeva tts gonna happen in the future? tot i wld lose him yest.
i was so heated up tt i had a really bad headache. but pulled myself out of the house to meet lion. since i promised to go for the ymd foundation day with him. it was quite ok i guess. the crowd was soo active. better than the sd concert. oh n the choir was gd. really gd. farnie conductor. felt sooo much better aft it all. tho my head was still pounding slightly.
guess the headache i had tis morn was due to yest's over exertion? *shrugs* i've been having headaches recently. wonder y..
kinda bored now, nutting on tv.. nutting to do online. hmmm.. owells.
went to pract at shawn n gladys for the first time on sat. it was quite effective i guess. i was sooo tired i cld barely breathe. met adam.. farnie... he typed tis on his blog:
after some sets of cha cha, sok yee came and tap me.
i was shocked.
at first i couldn't recognise her.
i was like thinking, hmm, who is this girl etc
but then i remember a familiar pair of eyes and all.
it was sexy lah.
hmm, its been years since we last saw each other.
both of us did changed a lot i think.
yea.
she's a good dancer.
and she's competing in the same event.
lol.
makes me more nervous and all.
after all, i danced only like 1 month plus?
yeah.
haha.. u flatter me handsome. =P dun worry man.. u're a gd dancer too. shake those bon bons! hehe..
aniway, melvin made us go thru a mock comp. i had to be on the dance floor 3 times. beginner cha cha, beginner jive n grade D (cha cha n jive). i was sooo exhausted, esp aft grade D. tot i cld rest, den mel said to rest for 5 mins n he'll go thru the mock comp again. AHH! almost died. n at a pt of time i was soo afraid tt lion will have an asthma attack. omg.. my stamina is soo bad. gosh... hope we'll do fine for the kl comp.
our arguements' getting worse. hope we make it thru tis. will we? or will tis be a permanent prob tt will last thru wadeva tts gonna happen in the future? tot i wld lose him yest.
i was so heated up tt i had a really bad headache. but pulled myself out of the house to meet lion. since i promised to go for the ymd foundation day with him. it was quite ok i guess. the crowd was soo active. better than the sd concert. oh n the choir was gd. really gd. farnie conductor. felt sooo much better aft it all. tho my head was still pounding slightly.
guess the headache i had tis morn was due to yest's over exertion? *shrugs* i've been having headaches recently. wonder y..
Thursday, July 06, 2006
my crit was today. n its oovveerr! wahaha. was the 2nd person of the last day of the 3 crit days. first time having my crit on the last day. but it was quite ok.. i'm satisfied... tho theres xtra work. supposed to be doing sumthing for tmr.. some presentation. but ARGH heck.. like come on.. cut us some slacks man! stop making us work non stop. n its pretty simple aniway, gonna wake up early tmr to do instead. heck. =P
cld barely slp the nite b4... jerked awake at 6 n cld slp no more. so laid on bed, sat up, stoned, till my fren msged n called. so yep, early.. was there arnd 7.40. first time in sch so early. by the time it was gems in the aftnoon.. i was sooo exhausted i cld barely keep my eyes open. michael kept laughing at me. he was sooo amused wif me nodding away. so paiseh lor... hehe.
practiced wif lion in the evening till 9++. danced till the balls of my feet hurt like hell. the worse was during the cha cha routine, he stepped on my toe.. den later, my heel hit the same toe! argh. hurt like hell. *shrugs* owell.. part n parcel of dance practices. so yea, was quite satisfied, coz tis is so far the first time we've practiced so hard for the upcoming competition, tho its still crap. ARRGGH. neeta perfect it.. HAFTA!!
oh n did i say i have sumthing for sweaty guys? serious.. i luurrvv seeing beads of sweat on the forehead. so yep, i was sooo happy wen i saw lion sweating... coz he dont sweat much.. like his pores r blocked or sumthing. but not excessive sweating tt is... its disgusting..
guess i really hafta slp now. neeta wake up early... hafta call dear at 6.50/7. nite!
cld barely slp the nite b4... jerked awake at 6 n cld slp no more. so laid on bed, sat up, stoned, till my fren msged n called. so yep, early.. was there arnd 7.40. first time in sch so early. by the time it was gems in the aftnoon.. i was sooo exhausted i cld barely keep my eyes open. michael kept laughing at me. he was sooo amused wif me nodding away. so paiseh lor... hehe.
practiced wif lion in the evening till 9++. danced till the balls of my feet hurt like hell. the worse was during the cha cha routine, he stepped on my toe.. den later, my heel hit the same toe! argh. hurt like hell. *shrugs* owell.. part n parcel of dance practices. so yea, was quite satisfied, coz tis is so far the first time we've practiced so hard for the upcoming competition, tho its still crap. ARRGGH. neeta perfect it.. HAFTA!!
oh n did i say i have sumthing for sweaty guys? serious.. i luurrvv seeing beads of sweat on the forehead. so yep, i was sooo happy wen i saw lion sweating... coz he dont sweat much.. like his pores r blocked or sumthing. but not excessive sweating tt is... its disgusting..
guess i really hafta slp now. neeta wake up early... hafta call dear at 6.50/7. nite!
Sunday, July 02, 2006
woo hoo! changed my blog skin.. nope i do not smoke... but i do have secrets.. loadsa secrets.. secrets tt cannot be disclosed.
so happy now.. coz i realised adam, aka handsome, someone i knew frm the first 3 mnths of MI, someone who calls me sexy, is in dancesport too! he quit dragon boat n joined NP's dancesport. n he's going to the KL comp too! wahah.. so happy. tis world is soo small... Sg is small tt is.. yeap.
aniway, went to the SKC dogshow wif lion n ivonny today. so many dogs! small medium big, cute, handsome, pretty. all kinds! the onli kind tts not present r ugly kinds, coz no dog is ugly. yep, tts wad i tink tt is. soo wanna have a dog... tis HUGE desire i have since i dunno wen.. but my mom dont allow.. owell... i'm happy wif cha cha. =)
den we headed down to orchard to walk arnd. for some reason i was extremely tired... n my leg was hurting like hell coz of my heals. wasnt in the bez of moods.. *shrugs*
i miss him alot. too much. so much tt its affecting my mood. no gd. i can control my mood.. but wen it comes to him, its so bad tt i can barely hide it. soo.. i used "tired" as a reason. n yea, i was really tired, tired frm the emotions n the amnt of energy i put in to suppress em. no dear, its not ur fault.. i noe u hafta work n dont have the time to meet me. i'm fine, juz need some time to get used to it. muack.
prok subm was on fri, tis coming week is crit week. time for me to rest n recover frm the amnt of slp i've lost, n time for me to catch up n improve on my jive wif lion. 2 wks left to KL comp!! n some shopping!! wahaha.
so happy now.. coz i realised adam, aka handsome, someone i knew frm the first 3 mnths of MI, someone who calls me sexy, is in dancesport too! he quit dragon boat n joined NP's dancesport. n he's going to the KL comp too! wahah.. so happy. tis world is soo small... Sg is small tt is.. yeap.
aniway, went to the SKC dogshow wif lion n ivonny today. so many dogs! small medium big, cute, handsome, pretty. all kinds! the onli kind tts not present r ugly kinds, coz no dog is ugly. yep, tts wad i tink tt is. soo wanna have a dog... tis HUGE desire i have since i dunno wen.. but my mom dont allow.. owell... i'm happy wif cha cha. =)
den we headed down to orchard to walk arnd. for some reason i was extremely tired... n my leg was hurting like hell coz of my heals. wasnt in the bez of moods.. *shrugs*
i miss him alot. too much. so much tt its affecting my mood. no gd. i can control my mood.. but wen it comes to him, its so bad tt i can barely hide it. soo.. i used "tired" as a reason. n yea, i was really tired, tired frm the emotions n the amnt of energy i put in to suppress em. no dear, its not ur fault.. i noe u hafta work n dont have the time to meet me. i'm fine, juz need some time to get used to it. muack.
prok subm was on fri, tis coming week is crit week. time for me to rest n recover frm the amnt of slp i've lost, n time for me to catch up n improve on my jive wif lion. 2 wks left to KL comp!! n some shopping!! wahaha.