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Sunday, October 28, 2007

i'm trying.. n trying.. trying for so long... trying so hard.. n i'm so afraid tt all these hardwrk will crash back to nothingness... i failed so many times.. tt i dun wanna fail animore.. but i juz do.. everytime i try... i'm so scared abt the future.. its so unimaginably terrifying tt i feel so hopeless..

i find myself crying over self pity. hating how my life had been.. how ugly n fat i am.. how useless i am not being able to reach my goal.. how no one loves me... wonder who i can call, n i realise there isnt anione... den i hate myself for being so lonely.. n i start to hate myself even more for self pitying.. for being so weak... it juz adds on... till the extend i suddenly wonder wad i'm crying over.. like a psychological break down.. my brain juz shuts off..

it feels like i'm getting bigger every min... i feel like i'm overweight...

sry guys.. whoever who tried to make me feel gd abt myself... i juz cant...