always.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

my nose hurts wen i sniff n my eyes sting wen i try to blink. cried so much today tt i tot i cld die. came home n shed a few more tears. the thot itself hurts so much, wad more the real situation? i can barely breathe thru my nose now.. its hurting too much.

juz came back frm zhantu's bday chalet. was in the room toking to dear abt our future.. i cld barely speak properly coz i was already choking on my tears. there's onli 2 choices, either i go to australia n leave our relationship bhind, or remain in sg juz to save us. n if i were to choose to go to aust, he'll wanna break up earlier, so tt i can get used to not having him arnd, instead of breaking up at the very last min, n creating a wreck in aust. it was heartbreaking juz listening. haven cried tis much for the past 2 yrs...
he held me in bed n sang a few songs, n my tears juz flowed uncontrollably.

crying again..dun wan the future to come... dun wan him to leave me.. can barely see the screen, now tt my vision is blurred by the tears. wad can i do?? is there ani other solution?

i'm not tt brave aft all. not brave enuff to face the fact. have no idea wad will happen wen the time comes. guess i'll break down psycologically.

i love him.. too much.


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