i'm in confusion n desperation. stuck in a situation i've been thru loadsa times n yet do not have the ability to get rid of. in addition to all the work load piling up, its all squashing me down, cracking every single joints in my body. soon, i dunno when, i'll juz collapse n my bones will turn to ashes. i'll juz disappear frm the face of tis earth n no one will notice. how i wait for tt moment.