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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

mind rather blank tis days. going by the days juz reacting to wad comes to me, den ending it without a sense of satisfaction, or consideration. which is unlike whom i used to be, wen every single small event will run thru my mind, having loads of comments, n finally at night, alone in my room, i'll scan thru the day. weird hobby i have, but yes, tts wad i used to do.

as for now, merely re-collecting wad happened is a difficult task. guess every single brain cell had been burned out during sch n my body is recuperating, so i'm using as little brain cell as possible unconciously. O_0 -CRAP-

NEWAY!! tots DO go thru my mind, esp during the dance n cheer meeting today. firstly... BOREDOM. what am i doing in tis meeting aniway? i'm juz a vice qm. freddy told me the day b4 tt they cant make it without the vice qm. like.. huh??? having the qm there is enuff. further more while they were discussing abt cleaning up the club hse, the decisions were given to the qm, so wad was i doing there? most of the time during the meeting, all i did was crap in my notebook or add in some comments occasionally. den marcus asked us qnses on y we joined the club. cairu mentioned tt she find the ppl in the club easier to click wif, n tt frm wad she heard frm others (God knows who), the members in other clubs arent as nice. n hey!! missing social dance was wad i felt immediately. i dun hate them, i still treat them like how i treat ani other frens, but i juz dun feel the sincerity they have to me, do they even have it? their greeting they gave were juz a feeble hi, like someone forced them to. or mayb its juz me. guess i'm juz not willing to allow their sincerity(if there is) into my heart. *shrug*
summary: i dun feel belonged.

i cant wait for the DE camp. looking forward to it like crazy. saw the list of helpers n only lionel n i frm DARCH 04/03 are going. there used to be megat, jon, hid, jack, ian, irwin, etc. boy are they going to miss the fun. was a little disappointed tt they wrote down their name, brought up leslie's hopes, but backed out later. owells, they got their reasons. i'm juz glad i'm still in. =)
i've been paired up wif jackson to be group leaders.. hmm.. still wondering who he is..

quit my job tis morning. was quite shocked wen i felt like i lost a bf. stared into space while the feeling swelled thru my heart. had been long since i felt tis way. but aft it went off, there was a huge rush of relieve. "YES!!! I'M FREEEEEE!!!" haha


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